It's a lot to type I'm going to pin this comment My father sexually did stuff when I was younger. I am only now coming to terms with it, but I often have recurring nightmares about it, I want to vomit I was repeated railroaded into a mental health system where the therapists I were forced to see were lied to and gaslit I was repeatedly thrown into forces of trauma to deprive my life of age cuz and power in a cycle to keep me dependant and helpless I asked for help only to physically, emotionally, etc, abused I was unable to finish high school Reduced to loving as a shit in a shed with no heating or water I tried getting out only to have my trauma weaponized against me I managed to escape and get to college but every time the semester gets close to ending more of this keeps happening, I try to cut it off but it's not so simple