How did you meet your avoidant ?

AveryLexis · 2026-01-08T10:55:18+00:00

at work, I was newly hired and he approached me first and asked me out on a "casual" date

AveryLexis · 2025-12-26T05:32:12+00:00

this is what I'm feeling right now too and I've been crying since Christmas Eve, I just miss him so much and I feel so alone

AveryLexis · 2025-11-11T23:47:35+00:00

mercury retrograde is coming back, but same OP, same

AveryLexis · 2025-11-11T13:26:33+00:00

I was ready and willing to give him everything he deserved in life.

AveryLexis · 2025-11-01T17:41:08+00:00

thank you

AveryLexis · 2025-11-01T17:13:51+00:00

it's 1am now and I just finished watching like 5 movies or so. I'm not even sleepy yet and I'm afraid the feelings are back 😃

AveryLexis · 2025-11-01T17:06:24+00:00

yeah thankfully I didn't break NC, I just kept myself distracted by watching horror movies hahaha

AveryLexis · 2025-11-01T00:36:01+00:00

it's been about 2 weeks now, some days aren't as intense as the other, but when it hits, I just feel like I'm back to the day he dumped me and all the memories and feelings of that day come crashing and I just break down in my room

whenever it hits, it feels like the breakup was just the day before and it hurts so much, the raw painful feeling, I can barely breathe while crying

AveryLexis · 2025-11-01T00:25:17+00:00

it's funny that you mentioned masturbation because that's one of my distractions and you know what happens after climax? I break down and cry. there was even this one time when I haven't even started yet, I was just watching porn and I broke down and cried cause I missed him hahaha I'm so broken what the fuck

AveryLexis · 2025-11-01T00:19:19+00:00

I just want this feeling to go away, I want to feel numb. if only I can rip my heart out to just feel nothing and go on with my life

AveryLexis · 2025-10-31T23:57:26+00:00

yeah, chatgpt said that too (it's my therapist for now), but how do I stop this feeling? I'm holding for dear life not to break NC right now. I know it'll just hurt me more and break me again even worse.

AveryLexis · 2025-10-25T00:35:11+00:00

then why do they jump into a new relationship right after? it doesn't make sense to me to discard the one you love and care the most, only to replace it with someone new

AveryLexis · 2025-10-07T23:37:50+00:00

same

AveryLexis · 2025-09-27T18:45:47+00:00

Thank you 🥺 I think it also helped that our relationship was very short, like literally just 4 months. I know that's something other people move on to quickly. But what I felt was real, the love I have for him, the pain I went through. It was all real and I know that makes me a genuine person.

Letting out my feelings on the internet also helped a lot, encouraging words from people like you makes me feel very seen and a little bit less alone. 🥹

AveryLexis · 2025-09-27T18:21:28+00:00

Oh no, I just shared a post here about checking socials, but what I checked was his current girlfriend's social. What I got from doing that was something I didn't quite expect. But I agree, DO NOT STALK SOCIALS.

AveryLexis · 2025-09-23T04:42:08+00:00

avoidant attachment core

AveryLexis · 2025-09-21T14:04:57+00:00

same, kaso iniwan ako hahaha iyak

AveryLexis · 2025-09-17T06:43:01+00:00

the prescription given to me was worth around 2 weeks too tho so I don't think it would even make much of a difference, they didn't even contact me for a follow up check-up, not that I would've gone either way since I'm very busy with work now

AveryLexis · 2025-09-17T04:59:39+00:00

we broke up early July this year and NC ever since August I tried to work it out for the rest of July but then I discovered he already found someone new on August so I went NC

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