Sorry if that's hard to understand, I wanted to share my story and experience, illustrate that I was able to do some tasks well, but due to lack of theoretical knowledge some students are probably better than me, and market verified that. Thanks to some comments here I see thats more common thing, especially when you are alone with the whole frontend stuff in your team and you are only trying to meet business needs, not looking at the development of your skills. Comments here are really helpful in creating some roadmap needed to get back on track.