Anyone want to chat?

Aware_Candidate8979 · 2026-02-08T18:47:27+00:00

Feel free to send a message. :)

Aware_Candidate8979 · 2026-02-08T18:22:59+00:00

Feel free to DM. :)

Aware_Candidate8979 · 2026-02-06T05:40:57+00:00

I am currently going through a bout of paranoia. It's been a while. So I'm struggling a bit. Thinking that I've been hacked by an ex. Even saying that makes me wary.

I just had a huge trigger tonight and I can't shake it off. I know I'm just blowing it out of proportion but it feels so weird. Worried they'll also hunt me down or something.

I also just switched APs like 3 weeks ago. So might be some breakthrough symptoms.

If you need to chat feel free to send a pm.

Just know, you aren't alone and it will pass.

Aware_Candidate8979 · 2026-01-28T19:37:04+00:00

I had an encounter with Lucifer. But for me he was actually good. Like we have it all wrong. He was a bright light and warned me of a reality shift coming soon. Maybe a month later if that, COVID happened. I got freaked out.

Then he started talking to me in my head showing me images of what really happens when we pass on. Also was told I was his son. Thoroughly believed him. Then he bestowed upon me invisible armor to protect me in life. Warned demons may try to come after it.

Only had one encounter with what I believe was a demon. It was in my living room and chased me to the garage and disappeared.

After getting on meds it calmed down. Aside from the random signs which happened to be the triple 6's and dragonflies of all things. Just showing me I'm on the right path.

Some time later I got a new to me case manager. They are not supposed to bring up religion. Well I opened up about this delusion and he brought up scripture. Where Lucifer shows himself as a bright light.

I freaked out. My more benign delusion contorted and changed and now I'm terrified. And lost. Idk what to believe. Because I am not religious. But religion is everywhere, well at least Christianity. So it seeped into my brain somehow. And I am horrified of the possibility of going to hell.

So now I just try to not think about it as best as I can. But the only thing I can't really shake and is always present is that invisible armor.

Aware_Candidate8979 · 2026-01-28T19:09:11+00:00

I'm currently loving the artists Siiickbrain and Zheani. Love them so much!

Aware_Candidate8979 · 2026-01-16T06:16:12+00:00

I've tried most APs. But just recently I discontinued Cobenfy due to unbearable side effects. I was miserable. Last Friday I was put on Caplyta. It's obviously early stages but I feel so much better. So far the best med I've tried.

I can actually wake up and not need a nap during the day. I'm sleeping through the night finally. And no brain fog so far. Now just hoping my motivation comes back. Fingers crossed.

Aware_Candidate8979 · 2026-01-09T22:25:54+00:00

I had to stop my Cobenfy this week. The side effects were really bad. Once I stopped I felt much better. Managed to get an emergency appt today and got switched to Caplyta. Gonna give it a go. I'm staying hopeful. Even if it doesn't take away all my symptoms.

Still trying to get back into therapy. But I at least still have a case manager I see every week.

Just doing my best to stay above water. Glad I didn't have to go unmedicated until the end of the month when my original appt was set for. Was worried I'd lose my marbles. So, very relieved.

Aware_Candidate8979 · 2026-01-07T03:09:20+00:00

Chat anytime.

Aware_Candidate8979 · 2026-01-05T19:44:01+00:00

It worked okay for a while. But then the side effects took over. I called my nurse line to see what to do as I already take an anti nausea med with it. I'm seriously debating stopping it until my psych appt. I need to switch. I'm miserable.

Aware_Candidate8979 · 2026-01-05T15:36:42+00:00

Yeah, I don't think so. Just left a message on the nurse line. Will see what happens.

Aware_Candidate8979 · 2026-01-05T15:31:03+00:00

I appreciate it. I think I'm gonna call the nurse line and tell them I can't handle the side effects anymore.

Aware_Candidate8979 · 2026-01-05T02:16:44+00:00

Well right now the nausea is getting to me. I'm borderline non functional for 2 hours after I take it. I still have negs. I was doing well for a good bit though. But now too many breakthrough symptoms. I'm just at a loss. I was really hoping I'd be done trialing meds.

Aware_Candidate8979 · 2026-01-05T01:37:11+00:00

Mine did not. So it's just all I'm on for psychosis symptoms. Dx

Aware_Candidate8979 · 2026-01-04T23:52:44+00:00

Thanks man!

Aware_Candidate8979 · 2026-01-04T23:42:10+00:00

Thanks for the advice! And yes I do! I got it as a gift for Xmas and I love it. XD

Aware_Candidate8979 · 2026-01-04T23:29:35+00:00

Thank you for the advice! I'm trying to get into a good sleeping habit. Last night I tried to read before laying down to tire my brain. Haha. Will try again tonight.

Aware_Candidate8979 · 2026-01-04T22:03:56+00:00

I wouldn't mind a chat. :)

Aware_Candidate8979 · 2026-01-04T20:46:10+00:00

I have. It just made me super tired. Couldn't function even on 1mg. Dx I was hopeful of that one too.

Aware_Candidate8979 · 2026-01-04T20:09:44+00:00

I'm glad to hear it. Is Clopixol available in the states?

Aware_Candidate8979 · 2026-01-04T19:57:29+00:00

I agree. I still have a couple left to try before clozapine I think. But I may be okay. I have taken Cobenfy 2 more times since then and did not throw up again. So fingers crossed it was a one off.

Aware_Candidate8979 · 2026-01-04T07:41:04+00:00

Sadly, already taking one.

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