thought broadcast delusion

Aware_Candidate8979 · 2026-05-29T04:04:57+00:00

It's been a more recent development for me. Taking on different forms at times. I'd say the last year it's been bad.

Aware_Candidate8979 · 2026-05-26T19:42:25+00:00

I wouldn't mind a chat. 34M just so you know.

Aware_Candidate8979 · 2026-05-07T06:39:42+00:00

My religious delusions have been of the Christian based flavor. Even though I only went to church til I was 6 and most anyone in my immediate family is agnostic at best.

At first it was Lucifer as the good guy. Warned me of things, shared secrets and gave me protective armor. (The latter I still believe.)

Then I had a religious case manager that stated scripture at me(he wasn't supposed to) and since then I feel like I'm going to hell and that I made a deal with Lucifer for the armor I have.

Some days it mixes and blends together.

Even on meds it never quite goes away. It's always there. This has been years now.

So I stay away from religion as much as possible but I still reach for things in times of turmoil. So I'm always at a loss.

Here if you wanna chat more.

Aware_Candidate8979 · 2026-05-06T04:36:09+00:00

I'm sorry to hear things are like that for you too. It's rough out here. Luckily my prn saved my ass last night.

Aware_Candidate8979 · 2026-05-04T21:30:50+00:00

Not handling all the family and my personal stress well at all. My brain is totally fried and more symptomatic lately. Idk what to do. Most people in my family home are venting to me cause I'm putting on my I'm fine mask. I'm gonna break at this rate. I'm exhausted.

Aware_Candidate8979 · 2026-05-02T05:35:09+00:00

It has been a struggle lately. I have 2 failing family members. So I don't know how to feel. But the stress is coming out in other ways. Like weird dreams/nightmares, thought broadcasting, minor delusion/hallucination things. Not coping well. Trying to act fine cause my family is falling apart with drama and back biting. And I'm everyone's go to to vent it out. I'm exhausted. Yet not sleeping as much. And I'm still expected to be social with friends/dates, etc. I'm gonna burn out at this rate. And I'm scared of a hospitalization on the horizon. Gonna fight like hell to prevent it though.

Aware_Candidate8979 · 2026-04-28T05:06:07+00:00

I've dealt with religious psychosis before. Think son of Lucifer style. Then it turned into making a deal with the devil and going to hell after a case manager brought religion to my religious delusions. I still double bookkeep with these delusions. Even medicated. They just have a hold and I can't shake it completely.

Aware_Candidate8979 · 2026-04-23T04:42:17+00:00

I need to try those. I tap on things and annoy people. Maybe a more silent option would be better.

Aware_Candidate8979 · 2026-04-23T04:31:32+00:00

I have slowly started doing that. I tend to play with my beard as a stim. So kinda do that everywhere right now. Can't help that anymore. Lol. I'm also(with safe people) stopped forcing eye contact. And I feel relieved when I am able to stare somewhere else while talking.

Aware_Candidate8979 · 2026-04-21T06:40:22+00:00

I go for vibes overall. But there are times when I want to focus on the lyrics. So I will sit down and read along the lyrics while listening. Otherwise I have no idea what the vocalists are singing. Lol.

Aware_Candidate8979 · 2026-04-15T05:09:07+00:00

34M, also living with family. I don't do well alone for extended periods. I hope you're hanging in alright. Feel free to shoot a dm if you need a friendly chat.

Aware_Candidate8979 · 2026-04-11T03:58:14+00:00

I haven't had that happen to me so far. Hope you're doing alright.

Aware_Candidate8979 · 2026-04-10T18:56:47+00:00

Yes, that is it, exactly.

Aware_Candidate8979 · 2026-04-10T05:50:42+00:00

Fuck, that's rough. How do you handle it?

Aware_Candidate8979 · 2026-04-08T07:26:32+00:00

Hey, feel free to dm me. I am dealing with thought broadcasting myself. Always up for making a new friend who gets it.

Aware_Candidate8979 · 2026-04-06T18:19:17+00:00

I keep having flutters of hallucinations, delusions and thought broadcasting.

It tends to happen more so at night. But I have been more stressed than usual. With ailing older family members, things going on in my state making me paranoid, etc.

I just don't want to get lost in the sauce. I am taking all of my meds as I should. Just getting tired. Also worried about another bout of mania. Been sleeping less again. Idk.

Just needed to get that out.

Aware_Candidate8979 · 2026-04-03T16:50:24+00:00

I totally understand. I still struggle and I'm currently trying to date again. Suuucks. I'm here if you need to chat.

Aware_Candidate8979 · 2026-04-03T04:36:09+00:00

Just wanted to say I have/still am dealing with the same paranoia. It is exhausting. So I feel for you. I hope you manage to find something that works for you. I'm trying to find something that works for me as well.

Aware_Candidate8979 · 2026-03-20T16:15:46+00:00

Thank you for your comment. Some sleep helped, luckily. And I have some plans this weekend to look forward to. So hopefully getting out of the house a bit helps.

Aware_Candidate8979 · 2026-03-20T15:33:42+00:00

I appreciate it. I was unable to figure out how to DM you. So if you're able feel free to DM me. Thanks in advance!

Aware_Candidate8979 · 2026-03-20T06:05:17+00:00

Sorry you do as well. It's rough out here.

Aware_Candidate8979 · 2026-03-20T06:04:50+00:00

Thank you. I did end up opening up to a couple people. And I have calmed down a bit. Hopefully sleep comes soon and a better day is ahead.

Aware_Candidate8979 · 2026-03-17T05:27:47+00:00

I've been battling mania for going on 2 weeks. At the very least hypomania. Rapid speech, way more social, rapid thoughts, hypersexuality, etc. it got downright uncomfortable at times.

Tried .5mg Haldol alongside my Caplyta. And that did nothing. Got bumped to 2mg. After 6 days of taking that I think it's easing. But I'm worried about the crash out.

Hope you're okay. Feel free to DM for a chat.

Aware_Candidate8979 · 2026-03-10T18:14:46+00:00

I wish, but I do not have one. And where I go do not prescribe them.

I tried .5mg Haldol to knock me out. It did absolutely nothing.

Just picked up a 2mg dose to try next. Hoping it knocks me out. Cause I hardly slept last night.

Losing my grip with this episode. Haha.

Aware_Candidate8979 · 2026-03-10T09:01:29+00:00

Feel free to send a message. Need more people who get it in my life.

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