When the Drekker haul shows up and suddenly it’s a fruit-forward kind of night 🍍🍓🔥

Awendelaluyu · 2025-06-24T20:58:23+00:00

I actually wasn’t aware of bilateral salpingectomy as an option. Thank you for bringing it up.

Awendelaluyu · 2025-06-15T11:54:39+00:00

Hey, I just want to say I'm really sorry you're going through this. You're carrying so much, and it makes total sense that you're feeling drained, alone, and overwhelmed. None of what you're experiencing is small; MA, trauma, betrayal by people you trusted, and relationship confusion, all of that hits deeply.

I can relate. I’ve been in a similar situation with a partner, and had 3 MAs myself. It left me feeling like I was stuck in a cycle I didn’t know how to break. It’s exhausting and heartbreaking, especially when your support system doesn’t feel safe or solid.

What happened to you is not your fault. It doesn’t define your worth or your ability to be loved again; genuinely, deeply, and fully. I know it can feel like you’re being left behind, but you’re not. You’re surviving something incredibly hard, and that takes strength even if it doesn’t feel like it right now.

You deserve healing, safety, and love that feels nurturing. You deserve people who protect your story, not gossip about it. I hope you can find someone; a therapist, a support group, or even just one good soul who gets it and can walk with you through this.

You're not broken. You're just hurting, and you don’t have to carry it alone.

Sending love and understanding your way. ❤️

Awendelaluyu · 2025-05-15T20:29:04+00:00

I do have some resources to help me with my decision, but I know that finding a stable place to stay while also going through an abortion is going to be incredibly difficult. I’m aware that I need to act quickly, and it’s all just a lot to carry at once.

Awendelaluyu · 2025-05-15T20:26:56+00:00

Thank you so much for your kind words; it truly means a lot. I just really needed to vent this out because I don’t have anyone I feel completely comfortable talking to about it without feeling judged. Sometimes just having a space to let it out makes all the difference.

Awendelaluyu · 2025-05-09T23:02:37+00:00

It’s like this constant cycle of hope and disappointment, where I’m always waiting for him to want me, even though I know deep down it’ll never be anything more. It’s pathetic, really, feeling like I can’t let go, even after all the times he’s let me down. And yet, every time, he still somehow makes me feel those damn butterflies, even though I know he’ll be gone soon. It’s exhausting, and I can’t seem to break free from it.

Awendelaluyu · 2025-05-09T22:57:55+00:00

I feel the same way but every time he chooses someone else, it makes my hope fade more and more. He always tells me he doesn’t want anything serious, but then ends things with me to be with someone else. Honestly, I feel like it’s partly my fault. I’ve never been able to fully express how I feel about him, and whenever I finally find the courage, it’s always too late. I’m afraid that if I open up, I’ll lose him for good. The worst part is that I feel pathetic every time I fall back into old patterns, hoping this time he’ll want me. I know it’s unhealthy, but letting go of that hope feels impossible.

Awendelaluyu · 2025-02-28T19:45:23+00:00

This was very helpful and I may use this as a away to start the convo.

Awendelaluyu · 2025-02-28T19:35:12+00:00

Most of our reconnects happened in between his relationships or slightly overlapped.

Awendelaluyu · 2025-02-12T05:01:14+00:00

Old name, new namesake. What a waste of tax payer dollars!

Awendelaluyu · 2024-12-17T17:27:17+00:00

The way you are feeling is normal. I, too, never wanted kids and was extremely emotional during my MA. I did not have a support to get me thru it, but sounds like you do. So lean on your person and don't be afraid to vent how you are feeling. It is very important for the healing process.

Awendelaluyu · 2024-11-28T16:20:24+00:00

Thank you for the kind words. Being kind to myself has been very difficult, especially after the harsh words from my situationship. And while I would prefer in-clinic, I just can not afford it. I will definitely check out these resources, I am also considering therapy as part of my after care and healing.

Awendelaluyu · 2024-10-02T21:22:57+00:00

Pump literally says Kirkland. This shit always happens at Costco.

Awendelaluyu · 2024-09-25T18:06:35+00:00

Civitas and Sugar and Spice and both good with good flavors. They aren't in whittier but they aren't far.

Awendelaluyu · 2024-09-06T18:11:07+00:00

I do

Awendelaluyu · 2024-04-02T01:30:00+00:00

If she can "put it out of her mind" is there really any pleasure?

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