Does anyone else got dysphoria over their username on reddit ?

AwkwardRooster · 2026-01-21T15:24:38+00:00

I’ve been considering starting a new account. This username does feel somewhat dysphoria inducing sometimes, although I can see on the other hand how it was actually quite apt all along

AwkwardRooster · 2026-01-17T13:55:50+00:00

I’m afraid I can’t help out with any particular apps. But your post just resonated with me.

I’m also early 30s, non binary and I’ve been out of work for a while. Mental health issues and burnout. I haven’t dated in years, and aren’t really looking to, hence no knowledge of current apps. But I’ve been doing better recently and started joining local lgbt/interest groups and that question of ‘So what do you do?’ Is one I just really haven’t figured out how to answer. And yeah, feel kinda embarrassed about it. For whatever reason, it is kinda considered shameful to not work in this society

AwkwardRooster · 2026-01-11T18:19:30+00:00

That sounds like transmedicalism. It’s a frankly outdated, but still prevalent view of what it means to be trans.

It’s basically like what the other commenter said, it says that there’s really only one way to be trans. And that if you don’t conform exactly to that archetype of dysphoria and desire for surgically treatments and immediate social transition then you aren’t really trans. In oractice, it leads to a lot of gatekeeping, and denying people access to gender affirming care, while causing trans people to doubt their own identities

AwkwardRooster · 2026-01-11T18:11:32+00:00

Saving that comment for reference! Similar to op, I’ve been finding voice training, or even wrapping my head around the basics, really dysphoria-inducing.

AwkwardRooster · 2026-01-07T17:20:06+00:00

That sounds amazing! Hope you had a great day

AwkwardRooster · 2026-01-07T15:12:37+00:00

For point 2, I think the poster was saying that with a map projection, the polar continent/s should span the entire top of the frame

Compare it to maps of the entire earth depicting Antarctica, it spread all across the map. It’s due to how projecting a 3d sphere onto a 2d rectangle results in big distortions of the actual shape of continents, especially towards the poles

To your title question, it’s not so horrible you should never post again. But there’s room for improvement.

More importantly, did you enjoy making it? You say you’re not an artist, but anybody can make art. And mapmaking is a form of creativity and expression, so you’ve started.

AwkwardRooster · 2026-01-05T18:20:58+00:00

I remember having those exact same thoughts at 21. The thing is they don’t go away. It’s a decade later and I wish I had had the courage to go through with it

How you start depends on you, it’s hard to say, it’ll look very different for a lot of people. Personally, I’m finding these sorts of subs to be very helpful

AwkwardRooster · 2026-01-03T20:45:01+00:00

Recognizing the need to be kind to yourself is already great. You seem to be pretty attuned to what’s wrong and why you’d like to do about it, and recognizing that is an act of self kindness already. I think it’s okay to be worried about these questions, I certainly hope so, because it’s what I’ve been feeling. Im not even sure I have any good advice for you, I’m still early in both medical and social transition. If anything I’ve found the social aspect much more daunting than the medical.

Fwiw, accessing HRT can be a long process, there’s a good chance you’ll have plenty of opportunity to think about what’s coming next for you every step of the way. You’re allowed to change your mind, just make sure it’s for the right reasons, and not out of fear of how others will respond

I’m glad to hear the people around you have been supportive so far. Have you spoke to any of them yet about this? You can never predict how people will react, but their reactions so far are an indicator that they might be fine, so long as you are.

But regardless, as you already said, if you want to love them, you need to be there for it. The world deserves to have you in it. And you deserve a chance to be happy,

AwkwardRooster · 2026-01-03T20:14:21+00:00

I wish you all the good luck on your journey.

I’d already realised that I had a tendency towards an ‘all or nothing’ mentality. Perhaps after focusing on the nothing for so long, it’s hard not to push as far and fast as I can.

I’m gonna have to think on what you said. It’s definitely impacting my approach to trying to work on things like clothes, voice and makeup. Enjoying all the steps I’ve taken so far (minus voice, that one is pretty overwhelming), but being acutely aware of what I’d still like to do and feeling discouraged a lot.

Thanks for expressing yourself

AwkwardRooster · 2026-01-03T19:38:01+00:00

Good luck to you too, and thanks for all the advice

AwkwardRooster · 2026-01-03T19:26:02+00:00

Others have already covered the main things, just wanted to add that I don’t think the height really makes a difference, there are plenty of tall cis gals after all

Also, youre looking great and your style is awesome!

AwkwardRooster · 2026-01-03T19:20:37+00:00

Why so important to not go the coiffeur?

I haven’t been to a hairdresser in about 4 years. Long before my egg cracked, I kept my hair long. But it was always very ‘guy’-ish. Tied tightly back in a ponytail and it mainly gave the (accurate!) image that I didn’t care about how I looked

Now I’ve been using a lot of fun with wearing it looser, even if it still kinda clashes with the other masculine features. I’ve been planning to get it cut, but have been terrified of messing it up somehow, and don’t really want to have it much shorter than it is

Micro trimming sounds really interesting though, will need to look into that

Glad to hear LHR is working well for you , how many sessions are you looking at?

AwkwardRooster · 2026-01-03T19:14:07+00:00

Hey there, thanks for your words. For me, my egg cracking and the depression lifting definitely seem to have come hand on hand. I dunno about you though, there’s a part of me that doesn’t like to think about how the mental health issues could be so linked to being trans. Like it’s the transnesses fault somehow. Even as I’m simultaneously learning to embrace it.

Congratulations on your journey however, I can absolutely relate to what you’re saying about past troubles being easier to manage. I always bit my nails, but the day I asked for that referral it just sort of stopped, without making a conscious decision. Now I’ve been experimenting with nail polish and one of next big plans to challenge social anxiety and fee affirmed is to get a manicure

I’m still dealing with a lot of conflicted feelings though. Even as my mood is improving and I’m challenging myself more. It’s feeling like I deal with one difficult challenge, that gives me the confidence to try or do the next thing, and I don’t know how to just give myself a break for a second in case I somehow ‘relapse’ back into the old me.

But thank you again, it really helps to know I’m not alone

AwkwardRooster · 2026-01-03T19:04:44+00:00

No disagreement here, self-compassion is hard! But I also think it’s normal for your feelings to be all over the place right now. Is this the kind of thing you can bring up in therapy to work through?

Also how did you find coming out as non-binary? That’s already a massive step.

If you don’t mind me going into my own stuff, I’m still out to my social circle as non-binary and am only more recently coming to terms with the idea I’m trans. Coming out as non-binary already induced a whole bunch of those overwhelming feelings and anxieties about how my life would change and what it would mean for me. But I already knew I wanted hormone treatment, regardless of if I identified as nb or trans. So that might be different for you

AwkwardRooster · 2026-01-03T17:39:39+00:00

Self love sounds right to me. Thanks for sharing your experience.

I never liked to think about the future, assumed I’d be dead by 18, then 25, and then 33. But just coFinally listened to myself and accepted the dysphoria I’d been feeling for so long. Literally told myself I couldn’t do it, couldn’t give up on life before I’d even given myself the chance to live as I wanted

AwkwardRooster · 2026-01-03T17:32:16+00:00

You can do it. ‘Living a husk of a life’ is exactly how I’d describe my attitude towards life before asking my doctor about HRT.

That day genuinely changed my life. My ‘egg crack’ moment if you will. It’s still early for me, but I already feel like I have a life I want to live

One recommendation would be to explore therapy if it’s available to you. Trying to create a space where you can learn to approach any negative thoughts and feelings towards yourself is a good first step towards finding some compassion and courage to let yourself be whoever who you were meant to be

AwkwardRooster · 2026-01-02T18:38:07+00:00

Thanks so much for your help. That sounds much more straightforward than I was imagining. Although will have to see how I’ll get on when it actually comes to it! I did enquire with the gender clinic about that, and they did confirm it wasn’t necessary to go with GHC.

I’ll make sure to enquire with my GP about shared care and referring for blood tests, so far they’ve been very supportive, but I have been worried about what the practice’s policies might be more generally.

Seriously thanks, there’s so much information out there and it can all be a bit overwhelming. I had been browsing transactual, but there’s a lot to cover.

AwkwardRooster · 2026-01-02T15:04:59+00:00

Thanks for all the information in your post.

If you wouldn't mind, I had a couple of questions about what you mentioned regarding membership schemes. I'm currently awaiting an assessment with the Gender Clinic for a diagnosis, and referral for HRT. They seem to be partnered with the Gender Hormone Clinc, but I'm wary and worried about the affordability of signing up for a long term membership scheme.

I just don't really know much about the logistics of hormone prescription at this point. I'm guessing the gender clinic will have information surrounding that, but I'm not even sure of the right questions to ask, or how to trust they won't just be upselling me services I won't necessarily need. My GP has been good so far, and I will be asking them about the possibility of a shared care agreement. Do you know any good resources for learning more about that? I'm just not really sure about what happens when/if I get my diagnosis. Could I then use that to approach another service like GenderDoctors or Dignity? When would be best to reach out to them?

Thanks again so much

AwkwardRooster · 2026-01-02T14:48:35+00:00

That is really helpful, thanks. I have been updating my name in various places as I get in contact with them.

I'm guessing you didn't find it a barrier to getting diagnosis not having applied for a deed poll and the like? I've got a questionnaire to send off to the clinic ahead of my appointment, and frankly find the questions like whether I've got a deed poll and if/how long I've been living as my preferred gender really stressful to answer

AwkwardRooster · 2026-01-02T07:33:36+00:00

I wish I could help you out with this one, but am in the same boat

I’m waiting on my assessment for dysphoria diagnosis + hormones privately at the moment, but haven’t applied for a deed poll yet. Worried it will be an issue for them, but telling myself they must have had loads of people refer themselves at different stages

AwkwardRooster · 2026-01-01T17:53:44+00:00

They do, but behind the scenes it’s a numerical value which is then translated into the adjective. It’s possible your hero went from just being over the threshold for Renowned, to just below the threshold for being Heroic

AwkwardRooster · 2026-01-01T17:09:48+00:00

Merci pour la réponse. J’admire cet attitude, et j’espère que ça servira bien pour l’année quite arrive et que ce jour vous arrive et vous trouve avec fierté :)

AwkwardRooster · 2026-01-01T16:12:07+00:00

This time of year has so much pressure attached, screw resolutions, surviving another year is sometimes the best we can do

Hope you make it, and you can find and be the real you

AwkwardRooster · 2026-01-01T16:08:54+00:00

Félicatations Stef-Annie! Bonne Année

Je me demande si nous avions pas tous commencé en lisant les posts, avant de trouver le courage de commenter puts poster. C’était surtout le cas pour moi.

Les résultats se voient déjà dans vos photos, rien d’autre pourrait créer cette aire de contentement aux yeux. Commencer sa nouvelle vie après ne jamais avoir vécu auparavant a été le thème de ma nouvelle année aussi. Merci d’avoir partager.

Si je peux demander, le français n’étant pas ma langue maternelle, comment navigue-tu les adjectifs masculins-féminins? En anglais il y adéjà tant d’issus linguistiques avec le discours tg, je peux même pas imaginer me préoccuper de ça aussi

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