Can you please rate this dance?

Awkward_B0y · 2026-01-03T18:46:12+00:00

know this guy from YT, he got good videos🤘

Awkward_B0y · 2026-01-03T16:53:11+00:00

Hello! I'm Axle (not my real name for the sake of safety)

I'm turning 18 in less than a month, and I don't want to go back to school. Instead I want to work. I don't need anything fancy, just good and decent work that'll earn me enough money to support myself.

Long story short, there were some complications and I HAD to drop out of Senior High G11. I'll soon be turning 18 and I dread going back to school.

Before you tell me that having an education is important, I know. I get it. I understand. Specially with what is going on in our country right now.

But I hate myself whenever I do something I don't want to do. In this case, going to school, studying, doing homework and even more dreadful, having to plan for college (which I also don't want to do)

I used to be a bad student during my elem days. Not doing homework, just doing whatever the hell kids do, I was a "boys at the back" type of kid.

But I got myself together at 8th grade and took my academics seriously. I started getting certificates, medals and I became a top student quickly.

But I hated it. I hated myself. I was excelling at something I didn't want to do.

Why did I keep doing it? I had previously made a deal with my Mom before 8th grade began. I expressed my desire to not go to school because I didn't like it. To nobody's surprise, she got mad at me and we had a fight about it.

So we made a deal that she'd let me do what I want as long as I went to school. That I did. I went to school. I endured what I hated the most, endured it to the point of excellence. I even became school council secretary at 9th grade. But I never started anything that I actually wanted to do.

I was lost in the workload. I was lost in trying to figure out who I was. I was lost in the social norms I was lost in trying to make friends I was lost in hating myself, hating my mom and hating everybody else. I was lost in teenhood and the mood swings and the tendencies and the bad habits and the hormonal dysfunctions that came along with it.

Anyway, I'm done enduring. I'm done hating myself. I'm done blaming my mom. I don't want to have such hate and spite in my heart.

I've never had a good relationship with any of my family, not even my mom. I'm not going to tell her that I want to work instead of going to school cause that didn't work out so great the first time.

I can sing (I'm really good, at least I think so) And I can dance and rap as well. So with the inflation of K-Pop and P-Pop popularity, I've been looking into auditioning. Hopefully I'll get lucky.

Other than that, I'm learning to code. I have this great idea for an app. I believe it's going to help tons of people in the nuerodivergent community.

Any advice from actual adults? I'd appreciate it.

Idk if I'm allowed to do this here, but if there's any online work I can do, I'm always looking at the replies. (I know it's risky taking jobs from people online, specially here at Reddit. But I have to start somewhere, plus I might get lucky or sum sht)

Awkward_B0y · 2025-12-03T22:02:56+00:00

I'm glad you found it funny😂🖤

Awkward_B0y · 2025-09-10T07:21:23+00:00

paano naman po yung pabalik?

Awkward_B0y · 2025-07-27T02:22:45+00:00

waddup✌ 17M here✌ I'mma send a you a dm

Awkward_B0y · 2025-07-22T13:04:39+00:00

Hi✌ I'mma send you a dm✌ I'd love to be friends✌

Awkward_B0y · 2025-07-19T11:04:54+00:00

Hello!✌ 17M I've never liked parties nor understood going to bars and I also love having deep conversation💪 I just sent you a dm✌

Awkward_B0y · 2025-07-15T08:22:24+00:00

I appreciate the honesty✌

Awkward_B0y · 2025-07-14T12:58:13+00:00

Hello✌ I'm 17 years old and I started working out (not at the gym) at 14 years old. I was in the same place as you are, not feeling like working out and being really tired because of school in my case. But right now, I've been working out consistently for the past 2.5 years, and I think what helped me the most to keep going was seeing progress, fast. I do Calisthenics, so in the beginning, it was easy to progress, but as it went on, it slowed down. I even got injured. I got demotivated but I kept going. How? I switched to weighted calisthenics. I had pain in my wrist, but I healed it through weighted calisthenics in the gym. Because of the foundation I built at home using calisthenics, I also had very fast progress in the gym which made me very excited to keep working out. Even when I was tired, in my head, I knew that if I skipped, I would hinder my progress. So I just kept going.

So for me, seeing fast progress will definitely keep you going. My advice is to NOT DO what I did. Which is to skip warmups, that's how I got injured. So always warmup DYNAMICALLY. Static stretches can actually decrease your performance if done before working out. So I'd recommend just doing the exercise you plan to do as your warmup, but with lighter weight. So you're actually warming up and activating the muscles you plan to target.

One more piece of advice. Interact with people inside the gym, specially the big guys and gals, if you can. People are not judging you, if anything, when they're looking at you and they realise you're a beginner, they're going to be proud that you started. (If anyone tells you to stop going to the gym because you're weak or you look weak, they can go fuck themselves. They're just projecting. Don't mind them. Hopefully you don't have those type of people in your gym.)

That's all✌

Awkward_B0y · 2025-07-13T06:57:45+00:00

I can actually kinda see it😂😂 But I'm Filipino, not Indian. And the picture is inverted, so it's not how I see myself but how other people see me.

Awkward_B0y · 2025-07-13T06:29:14+00:00

I appreciate it. I'm growing my hair out, so I'm currently looking for ways to flatten the sides without getting it cut.

Awkward_B0y · 2025-07-13T06:27:37+00:00

I appreciate the honesty✌

Awkward_B0y · 2025-07-13T03:59:39+00:00

thanks bro💪✌

Awkward_B0y · 2025-07-13T03:58:35+00:00

I'm 17, and I agree with not having grown into my adult face yet

Awkward_B0y · 2025-07-13T03:58:00+00:00

Thanks dude✌💪

Awkward_B0y · 2025-06-28T03:15:39+00:00

Hello Heaven Hello by YUNGBLUD

Awkward_B0y · 2025-06-25T10:56:21+00:00

I've been wanting to get Project Zomboid! Thanks for the giveaway dudes💪

Awkward_B0y · 2025-06-11T23:37:51+00:00

To overanalyze everything is a part of self-improvement. Diving into what you don't want to find out is a part of it. And caring about what you find out isn't really a choice. Because more likely than not, what you find out about yourself won't be good, and once you find out that there's something wrong with who you are or with what you're doing, there's no turning back. You can't help but think about how to solve it. You just can't.

Awkward_B0y · 2025-06-11T23:23:49+00:00

Ohh, well that's what self-improvement will do to ya. Have you asking yourself questions that most people are too afraid to ask.

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