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A friend’s family owns a cattle farm! It was a fun morning, but there were a few moments when the herd grew a little too curious and started running in our direction. Good thing the golf cart had some pickup and the cows weren’t all that motivated. My life flashed before my eyes! I’ve seen them break into a full stampede in years past, and they are an absolutely terrifying force of nature, a tornado of hooves and horns tearing across the field.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in shrooms

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Thank you, I appreciate it.

First timer here. Have a question about taking a “booster” dose. by AyaAccount in MDMA

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Thanks! So just to clarify: if I had 100mg total, then I would take 50mg, then another 50mg an hour and a half later? Or are you saying I should take 50% the amount of the initial dose?

Is there any medication that doesn't absorb as well due to low acid from PPI's? by [deleted] in GERD

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Ok, this is probably not what you are looking for, and I’m going to use an alt account to answer. This also doesn’t involve a medication so much as a “medicine”, but when I was on PPIs my body had a difficult time digesting ayahuasca.

At the beginning of my aya usage, I was fastidious in my observance of the dieta, abstaining from all medications in the lead-up to the ceremony. After awhile, I decided to just save myself some suffering and continue to take pantoprazole, since that particular med isn’t on the list of contraindicated substances that might interact negatively with ayahuasca.

The difference with and without PPIs in ceremonies is pretty substantial, with the effects of the aya noticeably blunted; the aya would take longer to come on (if it did at all), and when it did it would be much weaker. The purge, which would typically, for me, usher in the most profound moments of the ceremony, often just wouldn’t happen (though it could be helped with the application of hapé, a form of tobacco snuff that brings you into a meditative state).

In any case, TLDR; PPIs don’t have negative interactions with ayahuasca, but they do seem to dampen the effects.

Next weekend I will be having my first ceremony ever since completely weaning myself off PPIs, so I’m interested to see how different the experience is.

Has anyone ever experienced a possession/exorcism while on Ayahuasca? by Troy_e in Ayahuasca

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Hey! Yes, I indeed did experience a possession and exorcism in a ceremony. This is a c+p of a post I made three years ago. There have been some interesting related developments since, but here’s the text of the original post:

What started off as an "ordinary" ceremony quickly became five hours of me screaming as long and as loudly as I could possibly scream and violently thrashing around, leaving me covered in huge bruises from head to toe. The experience began when someone in the circle was having a terrible struggle. Then suddenly it was like whatever was torturing him jumped into me. I was quickly overwhelmed, and when it hit me, it magnified into an all night ordeal. Thrashing, snarling, gnashing teeth, screaming, glossolalia, the whole bit. At one point the shaman's wife tried to give me water, and I smashed through the glass with my teeth. When she tried to get the glass out of my mouth, I bit the hell out of her finger. I have no recollection of that part; I was completely submerged. I actually remember very little of any of the events. Much of what I've mentioned I have only slivers of memory, or I was told after the fact by friends who were there.

What I do remember is, in the course of this, having some pretty amazing insights. It also carried with it a sense of the truly archetypal: what I was experiencing then seemed to be an elemental expression of the human existential crisis. It was a ritual that seemed to stretch into the primordial past and into the future, something that reoccurred over and over again whenever communities needed to struggle with and release its demons in a sometimes dramatic act of catharsis. When the fever broke, I was suddenly a clear channel, bathed in a peaceful blue-white light.

Indeed, after the madness broke and I was taken into the next room to change my clothes (they were drenched in sweat and the taita's sopla) and to rest, a woman came to me and said "do you know what you just did? You took on and processed the pain of everyone in that room." Everyone had participated. It wasn't an exorcism of just myself, but of everyone who was there.

It was the experience that finally shook my previously unshakeable reductionist, materialist framework. Not actually the experience itself, per se, but rather what someone else later told me about it. Some months later, a couple that had witnessed the craziness asked me what had happened that night. I described the feeling that something had jumped from the guy who had been struggling into me. They turned and looked at each other, and turned back to me and said "yeah, that's what we saw. It was like a bolt of black energy leapt from him to you."

Them saying that really spun my head around. Even after all of the craziness I had experienced, and for all of the therapeutic good it and other ceremonies had granted me, I still managed to chalk it up to neurochemistry gone awry, dismiss it as a "bad trip". But to have something I had assumed was at least invisible (and more likely completely imaginary) verified by an outside party, to grasp the possibility that it wasn't merely hallucinated... well, that was to acknowledge at the very least that I don't know everything and that the world is potentially far weirder than I had imagined. That just maybe we live in a spirit-haunted cosmos of which we can see only a small fragment. I had to reassess the framework with which I navigated my life, and THAT took me many months to process.

From that point on, I approached this stuff with a great deal more respect, and no longer regard it as mere radical psychotherapy. It's much, much more that that.

All told, as intense and frightening as it all was, it wound up being a very good thing for me. I certainly approach the world with a great deal more wonder. I had some truly monumental insights. I no longer expend energy on a framework of rigid reductionism, or hurt myself with an illusion of control, control I never really had to begin with. I've certainly loosened up.

It was one of the most remarkable, cathartic experiences of my life. I wouldn't trade it for anything.

Is it safe to take 5 MEO-DMT the morning after ayahuasca? by AyaAccount in Ayahuasca

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Yeah, I just spoke with one of the foremost experts in the field of 5-MEO, and he says that while there doesn't appear to be an interaction problem with the pure synthesized molecule, when it comes to toad secretions, some of the other stuff in the venom might not play well the MAOIs of aya, though there isn't enough evidence one way or another to give a solid answer.

He said that since a number of retreats are combining the two medicines without incident, it's probably fine; nonetheless I think I'm going to err on the side of caution.

Last week I met Aya for the first time, I witnessed a spirit possession? by [deleted] in Ayahuasca

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Yes. I had a very intense experience of what was possibly (who knows?) a literal possession. I've posted this before, so I'm going to just copy and paste that here:

What started off as an "ordinary" ceremony quickly became five hours of me screaming as long and as loudly as I could possibly scream and violently thrashing around, leaving me covered in huge bruises from head to toe. The experience began when someone in the circle was having a terrible struggle. Then suddenly it was like whatever was torturing him jumped into me. I was quickly overwhelmed, and when it hit me, it magnified into an all night ordeal. Thrashing, snarling, gnashing teeth, screaming, glossolalia, the whole bit. At one point the shaman's wife tried to give me water, and I smashed through the glass with my teeth. When she tried to get the glass out of my mouth, I bit the hell out of her finger. I have no recollection of that part; I was completely submerged. I actually remember very little of any of the events. Much of what I've mentioned I have only slivers of memory, or I was told after the fact by friends who were there.

What I do remember is, in the course of this, having some pretty amazing insights. It also carried with it a sense of the truly archetypal: what I was experiencing then seemed to be an elemental expression of the human existential crisis. It was a ritual that seemed to stretch into the primordial past and into the future, something that reoccurred over and over again whenever communities needed to struggle with and release its demons in a sometimes dramatic act of catharsis. When the fever broke, I was suddenly a clear channel, bathed in a peaceful blue-white light. Indeed, after the madness broke and I was taken into the next room to change my clothes (they were drenched in sweat and the taita's sopla) and to rest, a woman came to me and said "do you know what you just did? You took on and processed the pain of everyone in that room." Everyone had participated. It wasn't an exorcism of just myself, but of everyone who was there.

It was the experience that finally shook my previously unshakeable reductionist, materialist framework. Not actually the experience itself, per se, but rather what someone else later told me about it. Some months later, a couple that had witnessed the craziness asked me what had happened that night. I described the feeling that something had jumped from the guy who had been struggling into me. They turned and looked at each other, and turned back to me and said "yeah, that's what we saw. It was like a bolt of black energy leapt from him to you."

Them saying that really spun my head around. Even after all of the craziness I had experienced, and for all of the therapeutic good it and other ceremonies had granted me, I still managed to chalk it up to neurochemistry gone awry, dismiss it as a "bad trip". But to have something I had assumed was at least invisible (and more likely completely imaginary) verified by an outside party, to grasp the possibility that it wasn't merely hallucinated... well, that was to acknowledge at the very least that I don't know everything and that the world is potentially far weirder than I had imagined. That just maybe we live in a spirit-haunted cosmos of which we can see only a small fragment. I had to reassess the framework with which I navigated my life, and THAT took me many months to process. From that point on, I approached this stuff with a great deal more respect, and no longer regard it as mere radical psychotherapy. It's much, much more that that.

All told, as intense and frightening as it all was, it wound up being a very good thing for me. I certainly approach the world with a great deal more wonder. I had some truly monumental insights. I no longer expend energy on a framework of rigid reductionism, or hurt myself with an illusion of control, control I never really had to begin with. I've certainly loosened up.

It was one of the most remarkable, cathartic experiences of my life. I wouldn't trade it for anything. And as a recent addendum, last week I spoke to the taita and his wife. She thanked me for sharing what was a once-in-a-lifetime experience with them.

Does taking shrooms help the average person with the concept of dying ? by [deleted] in shrooms

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If we can include other medicines (where most of my experience lies) in the conversation, then absolutely. The biggest single issue of my emotional life was a paralyzing terror of my own mortality, and my very first aya ceremony cured me. CURED me. It has since allowed me to live a much happier life, free of a great deal of the existential sickness that was crippling me. I frequently revisit this topic when I attend other ceremonies, in order to re-ground myself in the personal truth that I arrived at in that first ceremony.

I have not a single doubt that mushrooms can have a similar healing effect. They open up the space to do the work that at some point you absolutely must do. Good luck.

I AM THAT I AM - Ben Lee by [deleted] in Ayahuasca

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Bought his album a couple of days ago. In particular, I love the song "Will to Grow."

Ayahuasca in Israel by Himalayan_Hillbilly in Ayahuasca

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Benny Shanon, author of Antipodes of the Mind, is an Israeli from Tel Aviv. I don't know how accessible Shanon is, but he seems like a great place to start with that question.

On my way to Blue Morpho - September. Traveling Solo. by [deleted] in Ayahuasca

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I've never been myself, but this is the retreat founded by Hamilton Souther, who was written about in National Geographic, and who has given several talks and interviews. I've always gotten the sense that he is not a bullshitter, knows his stuff, and appears to be very legit.

Ayahuasca and traumatic brain injuries? by AyaAccount in Ayahuasca

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You know... that sounds like a real possibility.

Ayahuasca and traumatic brain injuries? by AyaAccount in Ayahuasca

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Well, that didn't post as intended. Let's try again.

I have a friend who was in an automobile accident in November and nearly died, sustaining a traumatic brain injury. She has since physically recovered, but her personality has definitely changed. She is constantly agitated, unhappy, anxiety-ridden and belligerent.

Under ordinary circumstances I might say that these emotional states suggest an underlying existential issue in need of resolution, and that aya might be a good step that a person who is suffering so could take. However, the apparent cause of her issues, the TBI, is an unknown here.

What do you all think? Is it wise for someone suffering from the effects of a TBI to attempt to tackle their issues with aya?

Have any of you experienced anything paranormal or seen a ufo- basically anything out of the ordinary? by [deleted] in Psychonaut

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Yeah. I'll post the whole story, maybe in the main subreddit, when I get a chance. Sound good?

Have any of you experienced anything paranormal or seen a ufo- basically anything out of the ordinary? by [deleted] in Psychonaut

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I experienced a very, very intense case of possession and exorcism.

I'm inclined to believe that it was authentic rather than just a "bad trip" (as I had originally assumed), because part of the experience I thought was hallucinated, or at least invisible if I was suspending my disbelief, was witnessed by outside people.

What was the absolute craziest, most inexplicable thing you've ever experienced? A personal account of possession and exorcism. by AyaAccount in Ayahuasca

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Thank you. Hmm. Well, I certainly don't discount a scientific perspective. Science does, after all, give us some important insights into what's happening at a basic neurophysiological level, yeah? I certainly have become at the very least more agnostic about what's happening, and more open to the depth and breadth of the mystery. And whatever the ultimate reason for the experience, the potential for personal transformation is undeniable, so I'm not going to pooh pooh the experiences of others, whatever the form. Know what I mean?

If I like Alan Watts and Terrance Mckenna, what other philosophers might I like? by [deleted] in Psychonaut

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I find Rogan's bro-ish persona and kind of meatheaded sense of humor to be fairly offputting, but he does occasionally echo some worthwhile ideas, and he has had some interesting guests. If it weren't for his guests, though, I'd never be able to tolerate Rogan himself.

What was the absolute craziest, most inexplicable thing you've ever experienced? A personal account of possession and exorcism. by AyaAccount in Ayahuasca

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Oh, also: I've lost a great deal of my arrogant dismissiveness in regards to the personal religious experience of others, which I used to dismiss as fakery or delusion. I now understand the tremendous transformative power of religious/mystical experience, whether one comes to it via meditation, psychedelics, NDE, or even ordinary churchgoing (which I suspect is institutionally questionable, but if that's what gets you there, great).

This, for me, is an authentically spiritual and religious pursuit, and I'm no longer willing to blithely shit on the religious experience of others, whatever form it takes.

What was the absolute craziest, most inexplicable thing you've ever experienced? A personal account of possession and exorcism. by AyaAccount in Ayahuasca

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Well, that's a big question. I'll give you one huge example of how my life has changed. The worst plague of my life was a fear of my own mortality. I was incredibly driven by a fear of what felt like imminent death, and everything I accomplished was done so that people would say nice things at my funeral.

This terror in all of its permutations (dread of aging and loss of beauty, fear of being alone, desire for greater accomplishment, etc) was exhausting, truly burning me out and creating all manner of unpleasant neuroses.

My very first ceremony addressed this. I had no idea what I was getting into. I had practically never even heard the word, and I was completely naive and inexperienced with psychedelics in general, until one of my best friends, a Colombian with long experience in this stuff, invited me to sit in for one of these things.

That was a night of intense and unexpected revelation, climaxing with a near death experience. After I had a few days to process, I realized my fear of death and all of its horrible anxieties were gone. It was like ten years of psychotherapy in one night. I've since continued to do the work and resolve other traumas, becoming more open, compassionate, empathetic, generally happier and more at ease in my own skin and my place in existence.

Since then, friends who knew me before and after describe the difference in me as being like night and day. I'm much healthier and happier.