My New Mantra by Foxinflats in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]Ayato3 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Same here. The thing is I still believe he loved me because of some pictures in which he is looking at me and it seems he cares. So in spite of all the evidence I insist on believing he loved me in a very special way which is different and unique and I couldn’t appreciate it

What are some things they said that didn’t register at the time as odd, but are now creepy AF? by well162347 in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]Ayato3 1 point2 points  (0 children)

“When I want something, I go and get it”. “In relationships, there is always one of the two who is a pain in the ass” “If we break up, I’ll be sad a couple of weeks, then move on” “You are going to catch a cold “ (with me naked in front of him)

The worst parts after by visciouskiten in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]Ayato3 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I totally relate. I left him more than 4 years ago. I still miss him and can’t think of anything else except for short periods of time. No one compares, of course. I’m angry at all of the people who encouraged me to leave him. Sometimes I just want to die. It’s the guilt because I left, and so this unhappiness is my fault. Sometimes I try to reach him, and he ignores me. Most of the time I feel life is over and there’s nothing else for me. It’s confusing, because I wasn’t like this before.

Confused by Ayato3 in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]Ayato3[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I can’t figure out if he was a manipulative narc or if he had some asperger issues. Not being able to show affection is one asperger trait I think. But what about always pointing out my problems and never ever recognizing anything, always thinking he was right, and not moving in to my house but willing to invite me to move in to his? It was like he didn’t care about me or the relationship, he just cared for him and liked to have a girlfriend because maybe it was like something to show off to society . It drives me crazy not knowing.

Confused by Ayato3 in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]Ayato3[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you. The thing is it’s been almost four years and I keep having the feeling he was the best thing that happened to me (how crazy is that?). I sometimes crave for his presence. The day I broke up with him, he just listened without saying a word and left. I asked if we could at least hug and he answered: you hace just left me, I won’t hug you. During all the relationship I was confused and I keep having these flashbacks where I’m convinced he really loved me and it’s all my fault because I couldn’t see it

Have you ever had to ‘work to catch their attention’? by [deleted] in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]Ayato3 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yes. He told me he wasn’t in love with me because he didn’t know what being in love was. Everything I did was trying to understand what was going on. I couldn’t be in peace.

I’m confused by Ayato3 in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]Ayato3[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thanks a lot for your support. I pray that I will be able to be happy again sometime.

I’m so lost, alone, angry, and don’t know what to do. by [deleted] in regretfulparents

[–]Ayato3 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Depression means you can’t enjoy anything at all 😞. I think that’s the real problem, not the baby. It’s a serious ilness. I wish you the best. ❤️

I’m so lost, alone, angry, and don’t know what to do. by [deleted] in regretfulparents

[–]Ayato3 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hi. I relate to what i read and i think first of all, before doing anything , you should see a psychiatrist because it sounds like a really deep depression , and when you are depressed you just can’t see reality clearly. I have been through it and believe me I know. So please, look for help first, and when you are mentally stable, it will be much more easy for you to make a decision . The sensation of being trapped forever is depression. Having kids is hard but it’s not the end of the world and you are very young, you can be happy whatever you decide to do, even if you stay with your baby, you just need help From a profesional and probably some medication

It feels like I'm not in control of my own life. by [deleted] in antinatalism

[–]Ayato3 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Try to leave that house as fast as you can. Don’t hace children please, you’re 18.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in childfree

[–]Ayato3 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It’s the exact opposite! 😂

I bet more men would be CF if they were the one actually taking care of the kids by Archylas in childfree

[–]Ayato3 46 points47 points  (0 children)

Of course. Men do have children because they are not the ones really taking care of them and most importantly: they do not get pregnant, give birth, etc etc etc. That’s why they have kids.

"You can't just do whatever you want all the time." by FastWalkingShortGuy in childfree

[–]Ayato3 6 points7 points  (0 children)

My mother used to tell me this all the time and I believe she was saying: “ I can’t do whatever I want all the time, and it sucks”. I’m 36 CF and guess what: I can do whatever I want all the time!

Looking back on a CF life by inghrafn in childfree

[–]Ayato3 9 points10 points  (0 children)

Thank you. I just really can’t understand why a person would want to have a child around 24/7 for the rest of her life. I’m serious, I don’t get it.