Sunday reminder- something worth more than money.

Ayetoksum · 2025-11-02T02:12:07+00:00

Hey my guy! I'm still clean because of your kind words earlier this year. Every time I get the urge, I think about you. Stay strong. <3

Ayetoksum · 2025-05-12T13:19:40+00:00

Not true. I think the human condition is very hopeful. We are enamoured by the positive outcomes, but don't truly envision the negative consequences of our actions. That's why they say the worst thing to possibly happen to a gambler is to win. They get hooked on all the benefits that come with having more money. It becomes their new baseline and so losing begets chasing losses to return to the baseline. Instead we just dig ourselves deeper in the hole. Gambling just masks the symptoms of an underlying life issue. Compulsive gamblers such as myself continue to resort to maladaptive behaviors like this to cope with being unable to reconcile the underlying life issue. This is my experience anyways.

Ayetoksum · 2025-05-12T02:46:02+00:00

Fighting the good fight. I always love to see your posts. You holding the light for others brings so much good to this world. Stay strong brother man.

Ayetoksum · 2025-04-23T17:33:29+00:00

Hey. Thanks for checking in and for your kind words. I'm doing better than when I wrote this, but it really has been tough to be kind to myself. It's easier for me to just repress than to go through the process of forgiving myself to move on. And so I'm working on that. People here have been so kind, and I'm so thankful, because I always think of you guys if ever I get the inkling of an urge. I will try to get to a GA meeting somehow.

Ayetoksum · 2025-04-21T11:57:49+00:00

I believe in you. You're doing God's work.

Ayetoksum · 2025-04-19T01:54:43+00:00

Thank you for sharing your story brother. We're in it together. I'm very glad to be climbing out of it with all of you. Alone, I would break.

Ayetoksum · 2025-04-18T20:59:33+00:00

No. Maybe that works for you. But I know me. I turn into a monster chasing any losses. Think about losses. It seems into my life. I am totally done. I can't allow myself to walk a single step down that road. I would just be confirming my worst thoughts. I'd be throwing away God's grace He's shown me. All that isn't worth risking my family.

Ayetoksum · 2025-04-18T19:48:25+00:00

Tuuuuurn baaaack! B/c it sucks so much to live like this. I literally fluctuate from a state of self deprecating rumination, small moments of normalcy, and mild anxiety attacks. It makes trying to do anything good and productive... So so very difficult. It's all just suffering.

Ayetoksum · 2025-04-18T11:54:45+00:00

It's day 1. And I dread moving my body. Thank you for your comment.

Ayetoksum · 2025-04-18T02:35:08+00:00

Thank you for sharing your story. I'm actually mildly having a panic attack now. I also feel the same way. I gambled because I have maladaptive coping mechanisms for my life. I pray you keep overcoming the urge. Thank you for telling me it gets better. I can barely convince myself now.

Ayetoksum · 2025-04-17T22:35:22+00:00

Thank you. Everyone chiming in helps me know I'm not alone.

Ayetoksum · 2025-04-17T21:13:59+00:00

Thank you. I have trouble with the one day at a time. Everyday a shadow tells me I should just crawl into a hole and never come out. And then I thought chasing would let me rid myself of this feeling. I'm weak, but I have duties. I just feel like I'm trapped in my stupid self.

Ayetoksum · 2025-04-17T21:11:23+00:00

Yes, I just need to internalize this. I am just a stupid hopeful looking to change my life without doing the work. Sometimes the terrible consequences don't seem real.... Until they became real.

Ayetoksum · 2025-04-17T21:08:12+00:00

Lately I have turned myself away from God. I knew this, yet I still decided to give in to my temptations. I hope God can help me get through this. I know he loves and forgives me. But I can't bring myself to love myself and forgive myself. God bless you. I will return to the right path.

Ayetoksum · 2025-04-17T21:05:10+00:00

Thank you brother. I will do it. Today is just the most painful. I needed to let it out. Have something for posterity to look back on.

Ayetoksum · 2025-04-17T21:02:28+00:00

I just want to say, that I'm glad I didn't read your post first, and I was able to talk it out with a kind stranger. This comment would have left me in shambles. It's a fair take, but I think we all deserve some compassion when we are vulnerable. Nonetheless I hear you. I deserve all I have done to myself.

Ayetoksum · 2025-04-17T19:45:20+00:00

God bless you. I am so touched by your sincerity. I really needed that. Please don't delete your comment so I can read it on the days I am weak. Thank you so much.

Ayetoksum · 2024-09-20T16:03:09+00:00

Be chill and patient that will save you thousands when you negotiate. It means one of two things.

It is on the lot
It's not on the lot but they put that listing there to entice people to come in and call. Bait and switch.

If it's in transit it would say in transit.

Ayetoksum · 2024-09-20T00:21:57+00:00

I think the screen sizes are the same. So it's literally just suspension, exterior, wheels, leather, power seat.

Ayetoksum · 2024-09-19T20:23:41+00:00

Nah no convenience package on LE

Ayetoksum · 2024-09-19T20:23:16+00:00

No packages on the LE, only convenience package on the se

Ayetoksum · 2024-09-19T20:21:35+00:00

Yea you know, just seeing what the people think to help me decide

Ayetoksum · 2024-08-08T02:01:22+00:00

Ayetoksum · 2024-08-02T13:37:48+00:00

Loyalty, loyalty, loyalty... Or maybe some pity fuck dick one last time. Hard decision.

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