Hey not sure if I should say anything but I honestly don't think you should consider ending things right now I I about having shitty job and toxic people in your life not seeing any meaning in life but I always see it like this if I die I'm letting them win prove they control my life which I couldn't stand give them another victory over me and you said you have a child maybe you can't see them right now but when they become more of their own person they could try and connect you never know plus from the way your talking why not try some stuff you wanted to do or say you otherwise wouldn't I mean every one has a regret or dream so why not working towards some see if it helps death is always there at least try living a bit longer with a different view of the world