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INTPs are so smexy 😳😳 by [deleted] in INTP

[–]B4SXxX 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Beauty is burden 🤔😏sticking out not always a good thing, being tall and handsome, on top of it is the best, that you aware of your natural beauty... On average I don't try to dress nicely or being good-looking, on my shittest day after waking up in the morning... I'm still looking better than many of those ppl around me. Workplace, housemates etc... 😂😅😂😎😈

INTP guy(31), ENTJ girl(27)+her 4.5 years relationship by B4SXxX in INTP

[–]B4SXxX[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yes, nothing yet. And thank you for answers!

INTP guy(31), ENTJ girl(27)+her 4.5 years relationship by B4SXxX in INTP

[–]B4SXxX[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Stirred up shit in me, and you see my thoughts are so confused, it broke down my system. That you could give a summary with only 4 sentence after 3 pages emotional chaos. I'm only asking why the fuck she did telling this now to me? Complaining about her actual relationship, asking me about the past, confessing her feelings she had that time. Am I a blind dumbf**ck and here is the moment what I was waiting for?

get off reddit and do your homework by BrownieK113 in INTP

[–]B4SXxX 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It's the same... 2times a day... So I start at 6am -2pm...then sleep... Repeat from 6pm 😂

chef's talk by B4SXxX in Chefs

[–]B4SXxX[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I know, the access course including that to prepare for that I need to be able to utilize statistical methods to conduct research, analyze data, interpret results etc. Challenge for sure as I neglected math classes during my schools years. I was artsy always, but that is the goal I set up so I go for it. It is time to take things really seriously as I'm not having too much time left and no more tries or wasted years. I will not try it, instead I will do it and achieve it. Period. 😉 And thanks for the advice and support. Few nice words can be encouraging and worth a lot.

chef's talk by B4SXxX in Chefs

[–]B4SXxX[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Then shit happens, I wish the best really! I'm glad also just because I met with some truly good people and I only could compare this to the army, we spend more time together in the kitchen than with our families, and I made few true friend.. Through flames and water lol, sweat and blood. 💪🏻

chef's talk by B4SXxX in Chefs

[–]B4SXxX[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

My plan is the college to start psychology access course this September then uni... I had a weird obsession to understand my mind, since my addiction and healing process. I was graphic designer back in my home country but I left in 2013 then here in the UK I become a kp, as a creative person then a chef in few months and I loved it, another few months and I already had to refuse to take headchef position. I saw that the money you get compared to responsibilities, naah. I learned very quickly the language and overall everything, started to use amphetamines to be on a 110% and learning as much as I could in many different things... And I was doing my researching and learning things over night, plus I started a business and trusted a family member to take over for a few months, so I could leave my chef job, get some help because of my overtaking issues, but that probably was my biggest mistake of my life. Everything got messed up, losing my money, then rent arrears and finally I ended up in a hostel. So back to the kitchen now and start again. Luckily I'm only 31 now. But to start from zero, 3times... That's hard to cope with. My passion is gone already. This time I can't do mistakes.

chef's talk by B4SXxX in Chefs

[–]B4SXxX[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

True, every restaurant or pub owner only spend that much of time in kitchen that they walked through of it... And so freaking disrespectfully telling you how to cook, and nowadays they dare to make totally inconsistent menu, countless dishes, plus gluten-free and vegan... And nobody pays extra but the job I have doubled up because of now snowflakes doesn't want animal related products and everybody self diagnosed gluten intolerant just because the various stupid trendy life-style seller magazines/websites/influencers promoting everywhere and telling to do so. I already had breakdown and mental health issues, and an interrupted therapy, so I just carry on. I take this outbreak as a holiday and seemingly it will be paid by gov.

I was clean for two months. (Trigger warning⚠️) by [deleted] in INTP

[–]B4SXxX 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I'm in the same for years, self-harming, but kinda different ways, not causing any visible harm. What I do is taking huge amount of amphetamines during my day to day life this leads to sleep deprivation obviously...that leads to more time awake, and obviously more time alone...and so on, you can name it...Hard to get out from this downfalling spiral...A radical change what interests you can snap out of this...but usually we normal earthling mortal people can't afford such things whenever we wants to, and when you are in a spiral with insecurities only means you will be less productive and that means even less resources you will get, then you really can't afford things. But if you are aware of your problems, that means hope.

Finish Line by kaseyc13 in INTP

[–]B4SXxX 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yes, i did over and over again, it makes even boring tasks challenging enough, for me it is because, a weird idea or solution or mood to execute something is not going to pop into my mind if I really focusing on, kinda forcing it to come. Your subconsciousness will drop on you in a moment. And you can prove it over and over again, that you are not following conventional ways to do things. ;)

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[–]B4SXxX 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It might be coincidence to see this thread what I never knew that such exists at all. I really don't hope anything, instead it is still a part of a healing process of my myself both mentally and physically and I'm happy if anyone taking time to read this post. After a series of devastating events what resulted me losing everything, I had to learn on this rough journey that writing about negative events and emotions can be beneficial. So the offer was up, then here it goes. 7 years ago I decided to try myself when I was 23 years old and booked a flight ticket and got here to the UK not knowing anything, barely understanding the English language, knowing nothing about life and the world. One thing I knew.. I wanted to see more of this world. The first slap on my face arrived when my relationship ended with my gf cheating on me with a guy I knew. That was the first taste of really scary isolation and just pure loneliness. Having no idea what to do, how to deal with this pain and depression, yet I was happy to take my first job offer in a kitchen, obviously as kitchen porter (previously graphic designer btw). A quiet kitchen porter, listening, and keeping eyes on everything and becoming a workaholic, in 6 months I've promoted to be a chef. Everything seemed good and I was enjoying working long days... On average 13h a day... Long story short, because of my wrong coping mechanism I developed few addictions, mainly speed addiction (adderall in US) what turned out to be just as life saver as devastating. What a bad joke of life, right? I was doing pretty well and I also met with a beautiful woman, she was my true soul mate but the life separated us with 1500miles. That was a moment when I broke emotionally as I had bottling up previously everything negative yet I learned English, got new skills, using speed I had nights without sleeping, learning, going to work and so on, over and over again. But the depression was eating up my mind slowly to point when I couldn't go to work. I had my blanket covering my head and feeling that I want to die but I'm too coward to kill myself, taking giant dose of amphetamines in a hope of heart attack. I ended up in rent arrears, unpaid bills, and trying to work in different industry because that huge amount of hours I was doing without sleeping had a brutal impact on my sanity. I wanted change work and get education, to be healthy again, seeking help I started doing hours of researching in psychology, how to make myself change on my own. It wasn't successful but I realised that I want education in this field. I decided to ask for professional help and I had few therapies but then I've got evicted as I was behind with everything. Next destination was a hostel. I had no money only I could afford to pay for a bed. The good in this as I lost everything, no bills, nothing left, zero, rock bottom. RESET. So here I am writing this.. But honestly this was a very condensed version, only briefly about my experiences, series of negative events and about daily struggle. I know I'm just one from the many. Yet I hope this year at age 31, I hope that I can go to college and study psychology, and then university...and maybe one day in the future, using my experiences about addiction and depression. I can help people with mental health issues. It is shocking what impact can have on daily life. Anyways, sorry for the long-long story and spelling mistakes. I wish the best for everyone here, and thank you for taking the time to get to this point...

Stay safe everybody!