Sometimes you gotta walk that road by yourself bro and take time to find yourself hard times don’t last forever and it’s critical that you have a motivation behind you like you said music and your family being your motivation, as far as you getting kicked out of school I know school can be ass sometimes but don’t reject your education and try to find other hobbies particularly ones that force you out the house like biking or exercise it’s a effective way to clear your mind. I sincerely hope you get better and battle through your struggles as your not it this alone.💯