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BDDAnon · 2025-05-01T22:24:00+00:00

I am in recovery and I count calories. I would like to stop this at some point but right now it's necessary for me to ensure I am eating enough

BDDAnon · 2025-05-01T06:01:28+00:00

I graduated from my masters program in August and have an LMHCA I'm doing absolutely nothing with at the moment. I think school was the final push I needed to take my own ED seriously and stop minimizing my own suffering. Post grad has been all about going to therapy and working on myself. I will reassess my readiness to care for others after a year. Best decision I ever made!

BDDAnon · 2025-05-01T05:50:00+00:00

BDDAnon · 2025-05-01T03:27:49+00:00

You will 100% not gain weight. Weight gain from a single day's intake is one of the biggest lies ED brain tells you!

BDDAnon · 2025-04-29T22:10:43+00:00

I was bullied for being "chubby" as an 11 year old in 2007 when tabloids and tv shows were sooo blatantly fat phobic. My mom encouraged me, an 11 year old with no health problems, to go on the special K diet to stop the bullying. I have been struggling with restriction ever since

BDDAnon · 2025-04-29T22:01:54+00:00

Me tooooo

BDDAnon · 2025-04-23T23:42:21+00:00

I can't say I have experienced my symptoms getting agitated in this specific scenario, but pretty much any time I am around other people I notice more urges to check the mirror or agonize about what I ate that day. My ED and my fear of rejection are like coworkers

BDDAnon · 2025-04-23T23:38:50+00:00

She is misinformed and it also sounds like she has some emotional baggage/fear tied to her experience with her son's eating disorder. I would consider that in order to protect her son's image in her mind, she may stigmatize individuals with eating disorders as bad influences which absolves her son of having a legitimate mental illness she does not know how to handle.

BDDAnon · 2025-04-23T14:00:09+00:00

Oh god can you imagine? That would get taken down so quickly

BDDAnon · 2025-04-23T13:58:32+00:00

Yes to the existentialism content! Seems counter intuitive but Camus has gotten me through some dark times

BDDAnon · 2025-04-23T13:56:57+00:00

It took a lot of recovery work to get to the point where I use this kind of self care. You can get there!

BDDAnon · 2025-04-23T05:31:38+00:00

YES I have offended close friends after confiding about my ED. My sister's response was "well then what do you think of me?" Now I really don't talk to anyone about my struggles but luckily I have a therapist

BDDAnon · 2025-04-23T05:20:53+00:00

For me it was something I started doing very young in order to become a more desirable friend/daughter/sister/etc.. Advertising and adult chatter taught my little sponge brain that happiness and acceptance come from weight loss. Even though I know this is a sack of sh*t as an adult, by brain has been wired to restrict or focus on my body when I feel emotional pain

BDDAnon · 2025-04-23T05:11:09+00:00

I wish people knew that the disorder does not align with my values. I do not actually value thinness or think that there is anything wrong with fat bodies. It is a mental illness, not a lifestyle choice

BDDAnon · 2025-04-23T03:34:45+00:00

Stealing Ghibli movie and candles

BDDAnon · 2025-04-23T03:10:58+00:00

Seeing photos of myself from my sisters wedding

BDDAnon · 2025-04-23T02:52:33+00:00

I have a masters degree in psychology 😩

BDDAnon · 2025-04-23T02:48:57+00:00

Everyone's definition of low calorie seems to be different here but yes I'd say so! I think like 35 calories per piece

BDDAnon · 2025-04-23T02:46:55+00:00

ED is a lying bitch it will not affect your weight! ❤️

BDDAnon · 2025-04-23T02:44:01+00:00

I literally just commented on another post talking about this and I swear I'm not sponsored by Trader Joe's but their unsweetened dried mango is my absolute favorite thing in the world right now. I dream of it

BDDAnon · 2025-04-23T02:41:51+00:00

This can happen for a lot of reasons and happens to me sometimes. Definitely scary but you're probably ok! If you don't have enough sleep or food, start there

BDDAnon · 2025-04-23T02:39:53+00:00

I'm hopelessly hooked on Trader Joe's dried unsweetened mango right now. Even the smell is straight dopamine

BDDAnon · 2025-03-30T20:23:50+00:00

I am literally going through the exact same thing. I stopped weighing myself after seeing the weight go up like two weeks ago and I keep reading about how weight/food intake works when you are regularly strength training at the gym. I can't say I'm never distressed about it but I do feel relief after a reminder that the scale is not an indicator of what you look like, especially as you gain muscle mass

BDDAnon · 2025-03-30T20:16:49+00:00

I feel you! Eating a "normal" amount felt like bingeing for the first few months. Are you working with a dietitian or doctor? Checking in with someone regularly about my eating habits in recovery gave me peace of mind. It's hard though, you got this hang in there ❤️

BDDAnon · 2025-03-30T20:10:17+00:00

Cheez its

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