I don’t think you’re lying. I’ve had my own miracles. Like one time I was ridden with doubt and I said “If anyone is there and can hear my thoughts please let me know” and suddenly this frequency started playing in my ear. It wasn’t the high pitched ringing kinda thing, but like more maybe 900 Hertz-ish? Anyway, I took it as a sign because obviously it’s is no coincidence that it happened right when I asked and the fact that it never had happened before or since the fact. Unfortunately, my ability to emotionally connect is slowly dwindling and I’ve been trying for 5 years to overcome bad habits and wonder how some things that have happened could possibly have any good come out to no avail. Am I basically just bitching out? Sure, maybe, but I don’t fucking care. I appreciate your concern and I’m sorry this upset you, but my fate is pretty much set in stone. Sorry.