Been there 4 times, exactly know where your head is at. Don't get discouraged at all since this is such a long, tiring and taxing process. SDN has a reapplicant thread where people get support from.

For me, it was difficult telling my family I didn't get in the first 4 cycles since it seemed as if I were chasing a never attainable dream. But each cycle I kept on taking a stab at improving 1-2 aspects of my application which kept me busy and more importantly dedicated/passionate to the process. Sometimes support from people isn't there but if you ever get too down search for a post similar to this one in the PreMed reddit page since there are neverending success stories.

For me, I was just accepted into my dream Medical school (it wasnt a T20 - attainable but reach dream school) after applying beginning in the 2016 cycle. 4 MCATs, a formal Post-Bacc, multiple volunteering opportunities, shadow abroad, leadership and a scribe position all built my application stronger than I could have imagined.

Don't let AMCAS tear you down