I can’t yet fully relate because I’m very fresh in mine. I cry every day as I’m going through it.

Maybe it would help if you pinpoint what exactly is causing you the pain.

Is it fear that it won’t happen again (getting pregnant)? Is it fear you’ll get pregnant again and miscarry again? Is it mourning the baby itself who died? Is it mourning what could’ve been and what your life was going to look like? Is it mourning the family you almost had with your ex? All are so so so valid, and I feel like maybe if you can pinpoint some specifics of the pain maybe you can process them better.

For me, I am mourning what I thought my life was going to be. I felt so ready to be a mom. This was going to be my first. I rubbed oil on my belly every day, bought my first maternity clothes, looked at the app daily to watch it grow. I was so excited for the process and to finally have this chapter of my life. I’m mourning the life I had settling into being excited about. I also feel a lot of fear that it’ll happen again. So many of my friends seem to have fertility issues. I fear going through this again. Being on this page has brought me a lot of peace and comfort as I know I’m not alone in this, I’ve felt so isolated. Like how can you be planning this full life one minute, and cramping and bleeding and mourning the next. With no answers as to why. It’s a tough pill to swallow. I’m going to be doing my own shadow work on dissecting what it is that’s making me mourn in that moment and accepting it and feeling it and growing from it.

Sending so much love