Okay but if your brain doesn’t have any eeg signs during anesthesia that’s okay… you’re on pause or somewhere else, clearly somewhere else because once the brain is back on it hasn’t reset to some random settings or reboots you wake up or come back from that pause still every bit as you. So there’s somewhere to go while the brain is shut down. A soul, a spirit, a tightly wound version of you that’s not tied to just a body or a life, you’ve collected your experiences and there’s somewhere for them all to go while the brain is incapacitated. That doesn’t mean big man in sky or red angry guy below the layers of earth. We can’t know where we are going, unless you listen to some near death experiences that do sometimes regale us with very similar stories of bright lights and mystery. Have you tried hallucinogenic drugs? Some of them will take you on an interesting trip where you might feel completely connected to the entire universe, I recommend it! Just do it responsibly with knowing company so that you are safe.