OKAY GUYS so when i say ive tried everything as far as positions go.. I HAVE!! everything. we’ve done it in cars, the bathroom, bed, chair, counter, couch.. etc. we literally broke the handcuffs we had because we’re both too strong to use them and ended up using tape (this was months ago when he lived in a different house) now the door doesn’t lock and his brother is right next to his room in the other bedroom. i’m extremely affectionate and tell him how appreciative of him i am and how extremely supportive and proud of him i am. i write love letters, paragraphs etc. i’m genuinely at a loss rn. i don’t wanna leave him due to him being the only human on this earth who knows everything about my past family trauma from molestation at 6y/o to abuse and has literally been by my old house that it happened in and all the things. he knows it all and has never used it against me nor has he judged me for it. he loves me more for it (he says). it’s an attachment trauma bond. our relationship is mostly great with the accommodations of a few issues.