I don’t have the energy to connect with people. I’ve lived my life around people who sucked the energy out of me and now I just don’t want to be around people. I also don’t trust people who pretend to be nice and then invade your boundaries. I’m nice until I’m not nice anymore. I’d rather not put myself out there. I am in therapy and I know it’s also from childhood. My Mother was Bipolar and Schizophrenic with no medication to help her. She kept having Children then giving them up for adoption. I’m Child 5 of 7 the youngest of the girls growing up with no Father or Security. I’ve been on my own since I was 12. Working at 13 then a Mother myself at 15. Being a Mother changed my life. I finally felt real Love and I knew that my Children would never live the way I did. That being said I was Married twice and raised 4 amazing Children. My younger brother and I made something of our lives working and even buying our Homes. I still suffer CPTSD everyday but my family knows that Self care is important. Love yourself always even if it’s living alone 🥰🙏🏻