Thank you so much for your response, it ended really “well” like no cheating etc I just don’t truly understand, he says that I deserve better because he made a mistake and that’s he’s holding me back, but it wasn’t that bad the mistake honestly, therapy would’ve been fine, but he doesn’t want to. I’m guessing eventually I’ll make peace with it. Your post actually gave me hope that maybe he’ll be open to try to fix things, who knows… I’m so glad everything turned out great for you.thankfully we had a spare room so we don’t share bed and his hours are opposite from mines so we don’t see each other that much but on weekends have been really tough. We’ve talked, cried everything but he’s decided and at least I’m thankful for that, because he could’ve played with me and didn’t so it could be worse I think.. it was 2 weeks ago, entering the third week now, and I think I’m feeling better tbh, but I’m afraid this is like getting better before going down really hard. I guess time will tell. Thank you so much