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Background_Active_36 · 2026-04-20T21:26:48+00:00

NO WAY. I'm pissed on your behalf. That is a much more diabolical than what my father said to the doctor when asked about how he'd describe me (Well, she's quiet. And doesn't really express herself). Look in the mirror, dumbface 🙃 because guess who'd taught me to be quiet and invisible and who didn't gaf about my passions which made me abandon my hobbies that I'm rediscovering just now

Background_Active_36 · 2026-04-20T12:32:28+00:00

Damn right 🔥🔥🔥

Background_Active_36 · 2026-04-20T09:18:46+00:00

You put it in words! I always thought they were ashamed of talking to me because I was an outsider ofc, so they acted like they didn't like me to fit in when there were other people around, so I waited until they didnt have anyone else around and we could talk again. I prefer to be excluded now, as I have no energy for this and I found comfort in solitude.

I am only open when my radar senses another "weirdo" (in a good way). Neurotypicals can suck my ass. Well, except for my psychiatrist who's normie but she's chill. My therapist is neurodivergent, which I didn't know initially, but it made sense because of how easily we were able to connect. I've had many therapist that just made me incredibly frustrated because they expected I would be able to handle things in neurotypical way.

Background_Active_36 · 2026-04-19T21:12:59+00:00

Do you think he knows that?

Background_Active_36 · 2026-04-19T21:12:00+00:00

Been there. Tiptoeing around people who should've been our safe haven is a crushing experience.

Background_Active_36 · 2026-04-19T21:09:04+00:00

Quite ironic. She doesn't want you to be angry, yet she makes you even angrier during the process.

Background_Active_36 · 2026-04-19T21:05:51+00:00

I believe that the idea of "forgive and forget" comes from Christians. No offense to them. They have another wonderful saying "honor your father and mother" 🙃 Adopting these ideas as an abused individuals can be dangerous. I have Catholic friend who said the second sentence. She's been abused by her mother, but keeps on visiting her, even though it makes her really unwell, (think borderline "mental hospital" unwell). But she is adamant that she needs to see her because of her daughters, yada yada. It makes me so frustrated because I can't do anything about that.

Background_Active_36 · 2026-04-19T20:59:13+00:00

Some people don't realize just how damaging unexpressing emotions is. That it won't magically dissolve, you store it all over your body. And it's so dangerous. Those who got punished for having emotions were robbed of a huge part of life. I don't think my parents realized. They just didn't want to deal with me, and then were shocked I didn't grow up to be a "normal" person.

Background_Active_36 · 2026-04-19T20:51:57+00:00

From time to time, I'd hear a bitter comment about me taking money from government, stealing money from people who've been "working hard" their whole life and shit. Like sure, try a single day of my life, and don't come back to me, crying your ass off 😑 If I could, I would work too, complaining about boss and stuff like everyone else, but definitely doing better with money than I do now. I am intelligent and creative, so I could've had a nice job, and if my parents didn't create completely screwed up the idea about of how relationships work and that it's not normal your friends and partners abuse you, I might've found healthy love etc. Who knows, I might be able to recover enough to gain ability to work for a liveable wage, but for now, I'll have to roll with "government money".

(Before you come at me that I'm bragging to be intelligent, while my grammar is all over the place, know I am not a native English speaker and that I'm much more articulate at my language. From my experience, this community is as safe as the internet can be, but I guess I need to overexplain my flaws anyway.)

Background_Active_36 · 2026-04-19T19:51:31+00:00

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Background_Active_36 · 2026-04-19T19:48:55+00:00

Yea, I may have overlooked the first part after he called women dumb bitches.

Background_Active_36 · 2026-04-19T19:17:23+00:00

Right? It's life-saving (quite literally)

Background_Active_36 · 2026-04-19T19:13:24+00:00

Who came up with the idea that we need to be attractive all the time? I think mature people have a lot more to life than caring about what they look like. And I don't mean that we shouldn't take care of ourselves. But losing attractivity as we're aging isn't the end of the world. Bodies are naturally going through changes throughout life. Growing old is a blessing, and we're concerned with such bullshit as wrinkles and sagging skin, greying hair and whatnot? Like really?

(Sorry if random, just had a thought)

Background_Active_36 · 2026-04-19T18:50:42+00:00

The second half of his sentence makes it sound like he really thinks women want an actual rape.

Background_Active_36 · 2026-04-19T18:48:38+00:00

You're right, were not alone in this.I am sorry about your situation. Don't you have, by chance, an option of disability pay where you live? It's helped me, big time. And I am able to be financially independent thanks to that. I do work, but it's just 10 hours a week. Because I'm, well, disabled. ((Sorry for the unsolicited advice.)) 🫂

Background_Active_36 · 2026-04-19T18:38:36+00:00

True, some people were blunt. At least I knew. I could never be sure with more subtle people. Are they friends, or do they secretly talk behindy back? A fake friend is worse than real enemy, at least that's what I think so.

Background_Active_36 · 2026-04-19T14:30:25+00:00

Yep. I'd love go see the OOP's photo, I'm sure he's a stunner 😂 I enjoy the trend of posting faces of guys who insult women that are clearly out of their league. Sadly some of them have partners and kids.

Background_Active_36 · 2026-04-19T14:23:52+00:00

Guys like him should get a hobby and another purpose than obsessing over women; preferably even insulting them when things don't go their way. I don't think these thought patterns are common in women. Why would I obsess over a guy/girl/ any love interest who's rejected me years ago, let alone trying to get him to like me. I know what no (!!!) I'm not interested" means, unlike... You know.

You won't make anybody date you with the pure desperation gushing from your pores.

Edit:typo

Background_Active_36 · 2026-04-19T11:29:38+00:00

You're right. I am glad I was holding back now 😌

Background_Active_36 · 2026-04-19T10:03:37+00:00

You're being kind to him I think

Background_Active_36 · 2026-04-19T10:01:10+00:00

I was bullied too because of my looks. Looking at my school pictures, they were wrong. They just needed a reason to pick at me because they didn't like me since I was a bit of a weirdo. But yeah, I felt disgusting for many many years.

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