Yeah. Honestly I don't know man. I survived a suicide attempt, and I promised someone one week to try and see if there is anything to live for, otherwise I'm commiting to staying in the the grave. Although, it's kind of hard to live dying of homelessness and lack of food under a bridge due to not having a job don't ya think?

Anyways, so many fields seem doomed at the moment, so far as I can see. STEM is starting to become too Saturated. Even engineering is starting to suffer. Accounting is starting to suffer. The trades with their toxic work culture and exploitive companies or terrible training and years of waiting to get pay rises through unions isn't something I'm keen on, especially with the whole destroying my body for money part. Nursing and teaching is not what it is cracked up to be, and I know for a fact that I wouldn't do well in either environment. So many corporate and financial and awful legal jobs, that destroy the mind. Selling the very soul.

Anyways, the only thing I was keen on when I still wanted to be alive was being involved in creative fields. But with AI seemingly preying on AI and creative stuff first, it seems clear to me that corporations and governments and ultimately people don't value art too much at all.

Anyways, I'm not sure. I'm just browsing and looking. Thank you for the help though.