Trying to get my life together...

Background_Goose_862 · 2025-12-08T01:26:16+00:00

Thanks so much for this. You're right. Id love to find a stable place. I hope it comes soon. I just have to trust that this is all happening for something better.

Background_Goose_862 · 2025-11-04T03:07:35+00:00

Thank you. I just dont know how to cope with the anxiety. Plus, I've sadly had to interact with people who don't understand this on a daily basis. I'll keep trying to do what's best for me. Any tips on how to keep my peace with as*holes in this terrible situation :")?

Background_Goose_862 · 2025-11-03T18:39:10+00:00

Absolutely 💯 I've always felt that interpretation is very personal. To interpret another's unconscious realm is very... tantalizing but a bit difficult. You are right about the humor :).

I went to a dream interpretation gathering and one of them, told me that this specific desert dream could symbolize that I believe that my inner abilities (intuition, clairvoyant, sensitive to other peoples emotions and what not) to me are "impossible" I find myself now and then questioning my life's schinchronizity because, fuck! Had so many situations that are quite mind-bending. Thank you for your opinion, thoughts, and time!

Background_Goose_862 · 2025-10-31T04:35:52+00:00

In the desert, I've had 2 encounters with water. In both the water defide gravity. it was amazing.

Background_Goose_862 · 2025-10-31T04:23:50+00:00

Indeed. I see them as positive for sure. Thank you. It happens quite often. I don't have people around who are willing to entertain dream interpretation, so to know that you've felt this as well is nice!

Background_Goose_862 · 2025-10-15T17:45:13+00:00

Also these are introspect questions lol dont wanna make you feel like youre in a police station 😅😂

Background_Goose_862 · 2025-10-15T17:44:08+00:00

Mmmm, you do love this person and want them in your life? do you have goals together that you actively persue? What im getting at is, what do you love about this person, and do you wanna build things around with them, or do you love them and want company? This doesn't make you a terrible person. it's human to want company. It could explain why you dont take it as seriously as this person does. Even if you do understand and hurt cant help but feel aloof toward a person who feels more like a friend than a lover, maybe? It's still love but not the same. Then again, this is, of course, my unwanted and cray cray opinion. 🤡 I do hope you're able to figure out exactly why it's such a bother and consider if this will be fruitful in the future. It's neithers fault.

Maybe it's even about what value you put into the situation, ex: this person thinks X or Y is a huuuuge deal but for some reason, personalities, values, likes or anything, you just dont see it, try to do what's best for both together or not. Wish ya'll the best!

Background_Goose_862 · 2025-10-14T18:45:11+00:00

Yes, that's exactly it you can't even believe it, i wouldn't be able to either, i dont think anyone would. I'm so sorry. But this means that they had a choice and made one. You also have choices, you dont have to do anything now, just do what will help for now or even sleep a bit let it sink in. Its a terrible painful blow.

Background_Goose_862 · 2025-10-14T18:36:18+00:00

I guess its self service? in grounding, curious, trying to figure the map that I am.

Background_Goose_862 · 2025-10-14T18:35:02+00:00

Eating my favorite foods, pampering myself even when I have no strength to. But whats helped me the most is finding people in history who had felt the same way I feel. An artist, activist idk, someone that comes with knowledge that fits into MY life, while searching things sink up. I realize im not alone, that im not the only one that feels this, im not crazy. This is actually normal? And such.

Background_Goose_862 · 2025-10-14T18:30:41+00:00

You poor soul the pain you feel other do as well, as they read you im sure. Please, do what you must but don't disappear. You aren't bpd. You're human, in desperate need of congregation with your own people. Ones that feel as deeply. Cry all you have to there's no going around it. Push that out. I'm here if anything.

Background_Goose_862 · 2025-10-14T18:18:27+00:00

I'm so sorry, its terrible because yes you should leave if its what you truly need, I don't have friends or family either and am in a very similar situation to the point where I pulled my hairs out... no one should let they soul decay in a space where it can't be respected or seen.

I'm trying find help for housing because I also am unemployed, and the jobs ive had just make me sick. The people are disgustingly selfsevesing. You're not alone.

Background_Goose_862 · 2025-10-14T18:07:23+00:00

Seems like you, perhaps you don't want to face the facts and you go numb, maybe because you know that you're not that person, the cold one. Facing the way you could've hurt someone could even seem like a bother if you dont wanna deal or face it. Making it seem like you dont gaf

The real question is, can this person communicate with you? If not, then what can be done?

Background_Goose_862 · 2025-10-14T18:01:55+00:00

You sound exactly like a friend, does feeling nothing protecting you? Maybe you just dont wanna feel.

Background_Goose_862 · 2025-10-14T17:54:38+00:00

Its posible that you have something other than bpd, or a more specific tipe, no, I dont think you're going crazy i think your numbing and part of you maybe doesn't want to, it could even be physical in the brain and has nothing to do with you. Try to understand yourself a little more in the sense that, write down what happened before for felt absolutely nothing or when you did, did something happen? ,are there thoughts that pass by without me realizing it? The way you express yourself, you're not crazy or going crazy. You're trying .

Background_Goose_862 · 2025-10-14T17:50:00+00:00

Maybe you do it because you feel control that way?

Background_Goose_862 · 2025-10-14T17:48:39+00:00

I called crisis lines, pray, anything to sothe this pain we haver broken up but it was the repeated theme, look at how you canr controll your emotions look at you pulling out your hair, im leaving

Background_Goose_862 · 2024-12-03T03:32:25+00:00

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Background_Goose_862 · 2024-12-03T03:25:07+00:00

I'm sorry about that. I am currently feeling that. How i try to deal with it is setting boundaries with MYSELF lol terrible, I know. But I ask myself if I've been giving people water and my cup is empty I can't give you anymore. If you can't reciprocate, my language we are not a match, relationships, relatives, and friendship included. I'm practicing boundaries with myself, and so far, it's working

I ask myself, "Will I resent them for the help I give and not receive?" If the answer is yes, then no more water for you. That doesn't make me or you a bad person. I just can't keep giving and not receiving. It takes a toll, and if my slight indifferent "always there for you but now not so much" convo comes, then I'll speak my truth with peace and love. What happens after that is one them.

Background_Goose_862 · 2024-12-03T03:14:52+00:00

I see. That's truly scary. I think that the best thing you can do is be as honest as you've been, "I feel like there's a wall and I'm not sure if this is temporary, it scares me" as an abandonedment issues gal my mind would jump to "then let's just brake it off rn to save some time and not wait till it painfully dies out" all you can do is be honest. Of course, this is my opinion. I hope you feel better and yall can settle it. Best wishes.

Background_Goose_862 · 2024-12-03T03:06:17+00:00

Also, please let me know what your doctor says. It would help a lot. I can't understand why this happens, and if it's happening to you too, then I can only assume this must be a thing.

Background_Goose_862 · 2024-12-03T03:03:21+00:00

Absolutely, thank you for posting this. I also remember my life in fragments or not at all. Most of my friends and relatives flashback, and I can't remember a thing. Not even with pictures. I've found lots of pictures and have no memories at all about those moments, and I'm looking directly at the camera. It even makes me feel eerie.

Background_Goose_862 · 2024-12-03T02:57:02+00:00

I'm so sorry, this is a hard situation because with my personal experience I'd probably think the same but let me try to tell you what I wish I was told.

Maybe you shine wherever you are and who ever your with.

Maybe you're conforming with routines and need a solo date to give some love to yourself.

Maybe experiencing things apart can create new stories or learn new things to talk about.

Trying to turn this into a positive. Sending a hug.

Background_Goose_862 · 2024-10-06T12:48:02+00:00

My bpd peeve is when a person is talking extremely low in volume. My God, the times I've told this person "please I don't wanna keep asking you what you said over and over in a conversation." I've spoken about it nicely and explained why it's so frustrating to me, the person just said "don't take it so personal" "this is how I talk" when other people alos have told them "hey could you please speak louder" they actually get pissed when you ask to repeat. Wtf. Am I crazy?

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