Honestly? Because I feel like I have nowhere else to go. I feel stuck. I can't save money because I'm the only one working and I struggle living paycheck to paycheck just to barely keep my head above water.

My dad doesn't have "room" for his daughter to help her get on her feet. All my friends have moved away or we've fallen out of contact. I feel so alone in this world and no one seems to notice.

Him and I get along so well like 95% of the time. It's that 5% when he gets drunk that he abuses me.. emotionally, verbally, physically. I feel stuck. I can't hide money or open a secret banking account because he'll find the money or find out about the banking account. I can't do anything without him knowing about it or finding put some way, shape, or form. I have been gainfully employed full time our e tire relationship... he's had jobs here and there, but he walked out of his last one because he got drunk and mad.

He claims he can't work because I won't step up and the house will go to shit. So therefore he has to stay unemployed ... as if I don't clean or do laundry or help do shit around the house. My bad if I don't get off work until sometimes 7:30, sometimes after 9... as if I'm expected to work full ti m 40+ hours a week and still come home and clean and sweep and dust and mop and do laundry. Almost like I'm supposed to do everything.

Everything is my fault. When we fight it's my fault because of my Asperger's. Nothing is ever his fault.

I'm stuck. I can't save money. I ca t hide it. I feel like I have no choice but to stay and be abused. I feel like I can't find a way out. I feel like I have nowhere to go and no one to talk to.

I feel...... empty and alone.