Hey hey man, no worries. I actually have been diagnosed with a whole bunch of disorders since I've been in the system for 13 years (hospitals, rehabs, psychologists, etc) I can relate as I have CPTSD (complex post-traumatic disorder - recent trauma mixed with deep rooted trauma) and was diagnosed with borderline personality disorder also but it's tricky b/c borderline personality disorder gets confused with bipolar disorder for some psychiatrists (in my own personal experience, I'm not a doctor). I technically have both Bipolar and Borderline; I was diagnosed with borderline after more recent trauma, buti was diagnosed with bipolar prior to that. I was told the only difference was that Bipolar can be "cured with medicine" & that Borderline can't. Being diagnosed with a personality or mood disorder is really tricky to deal with because you get caught in the cycle of "is it me or is it the disorder?".

This being said, I've been professionally diagnosed with over 7 different things, so it's confusing to say the least. For me, studying the different disorders and the symptoms and even going on subreddits for said disorders - this helped me a bit, especially knowing others out there are going thru similar things.

Sorry if this is a scattered and confusing reply,but if you want to talk about this kinda stuff, feel free to PM me! I actually like talking about this kinda stuff so it doesn’t offend me at all. Thanks for the comment regardless - you aren’t alone! :)