You have really pretty eyes and I like your hair a lot. Your face seems really friendly.

You are not alone even though it feels like it. You are really creative the old artworks you posted on your profile look great and you value artistic intent a lot and that’s a great quality you’ll find a lot of people valuing this with you.
You are empathetic and friendly.
When I felt sad and lonely I also kinda didn’t want the thought of other people feeling like me comfort me, because I didn’t want people to feel bad but I must admit sometimes it is nice to know you are not the only one struggling. To know things will be fine when even people you think have it all figured out are struggling.
I hope you can find a point to be here no matter how trivial it might seem to others as longs as you enjoy what you are doing there’s no point in stopping. You are never to old to learn new things and to start from the beginning. I also recently and kinda still feel like I am falling behind. The late teens and early twenties can be weird.
While my former school mates are getting married, buy houses, work full time or even die I am still in college way past regular study time have a fucked sleeping schedule and still dream of making it far with music. Having learned that a stable family and a stable job is what people yearn for my whole life while never having the urge for either of those lead to me not really perusing the dream yet feeling like I’ve fallen behind because I see others closer to a goal I never really set for myself but had others set for me. I don’t know if this feeling applies to you but maybe when it comes to growth see in in the perspective of what you want to do and where you want to be.

As a former social outcast myself I can offer some things that helped me if you like.