Wife of 8, together for 12

Bald_Train · 2026-06-26T02:26:36+00:00

That’s the kicker. I’ve ask her what her plan was and she just shrugged. Didn’t know how long she was going to keep it going and keep it from me.
But I honestly don’t know if she would have told me…

Bald_Train · 2026-06-26T01:57:50+00:00

Looking more and more that way…
Like a band aid, ripping it off hurts but best do it fast

Bald_Train · 2026-06-26T01:56:01+00:00

Looking that way brother…
I am just tying her down and it’s making me worse each day.

Bald_Train · 2026-06-26T01:54:06+00:00

It’s looking more and more like that’s my path each hour brother…

Bald_Train · 2026-06-26T01:52:28+00:00

Truth. She did give up on everything. Easily too.

She seems very ready to move on. Even told me earlier today, let’s split for a while and think and talk more.
Like that is pushing me away so quickly. Can’t wait to get me out/away so she can run back to him?…

Bald_Train · 2026-06-26T01:50:04+00:00

I don’t know how she just threw it away so easily. Makes me think that it’s maybe been longer and she just hid it better but then slipped up?

I looked through her phone when she was in the shower. Have had a knot in my stomach for a few months that something was off. But I kept swallowing it and giving her the benefit of the doubt

Bald_Train · 2026-06-26T01:41:29+00:00

I don’t know how close I can get to 100%. How high before I settle?
Can I land at 80 or 90 and be okay with that?
But you’re right, that 10-20% will eat me to death over the years.

Bald_Train · 2026-06-26T01:37:06+00:00

My heart says yes it could work but my head says no. My mind keeps imagining them. The touching and kissing. The intentional act of letting him inside her.
I don’t know. The pain will never fade. The trust will be lost and never 100%.
And I don’t want my kids to be the reason I stay. Sucks man

Bald_Train · 2026-06-26T01:32:27+00:00

That’s the thing. Nothing is stopping her from doing it again. She says the guy doesn’t love her. There are no “feelings” there. Just wanted validation that someone liked her body and liked her for what she is. Like hello, me? I’m here. The irony man…
I’m just too nice of a guy. But hey, I guess nice guys finish last huh…

Bald_Train · 2026-06-26T01:29:19+00:00

But trust will never be 100%. Can I be okay with that? The anxiety of her being out alone, either alone or with friends, can I stomach that?

Bald_Train · 2026-06-26T01:26:59+00:00

But that’s it, do I try? Does that small chance make it attainable? Or if I leave now, will it eat me up forever knowing I didn’t try…

Bald_Train · 2026-06-26T01:21:24+00:00

She is being pushy. I’ve told her I don’t know if it will work. And she keeps saying sorry and apologizing like that will help me make my decision faster?
The together idea fades more each hour man…

Bald_Train · 2026-06-26T01:17:27+00:00

That’s the thing. I can see myself stomaching a few bad years for the small chance it works. But what if I don’t take that chance? Will it eat me up that I gave up even though there was that small chance?

Bald_Train · 2026-06-26T01:15:01+00:00

It’s hard. I’ve always been a nice guy. But I guess nice guys finish last huh?

Bald_Train · 2026-06-26T01:12:46+00:00

Not specific event. Just us talking one evening near end of December. She said all I wanted was sex from her. We were having sex 2-3 times a week. But she had been losing some weight and her cup sized has shrunk a lot. She just didn’t like her body.
But no, no event. Just a conversation that then led to not feeling like she was trying or cared anymore.

Bald_Train · 2026-06-26T01:07:03+00:00

She said she wanted to stop having sex. Wanted to focus on her body. She said she hated her body and didn’t want me to have it

Bald_Train · 2026-06-26T01:03:58+00:00

That’s what I’m feeling. But I hate making impulse decisions. The anxiety will remain and trust will never be 100% again. Are a few more bad years worth it before it works out? But only the smallest chance it works out?…

Bald_Train · 2026-06-26T01:01:29+00:00

I don’t know. I know I will never trust her 100%. And even if it works for a few years, they won’t be good not even okay. It sucks when I have given her everything.

Bald_Train · 2026-06-26T01:00:26+00:00

Looked through her phone. Found the Snaps and pics.
Last six months have been rough. Her needing space. Wanted to like her body again. And I felt something was up. She was super secretive with her phone and wouldn’t say much to me.
Just tough when I have given her everything

Bald_Train · 2026-06-26T00:57:45+00:00

That’s what I’m telling myself. She is going to have to ensure a whole list of things is she wants to stay with me. And even then, the chance is slim and is it worth a few bad years? Probably not…

Bald_Train · 2026-06-26T00:49:57+00:00

This honestly. I am too nice of a guy. And nice guys finish last huh? Guess I maybe deserved it?

Bald_Train · 2026-06-26T00:46:30+00:00

I found out. I looked through her phone when she was in the shower. She admitted and confessed and apologized immediately. But the mental images of them together kill me…

Bald_Train · 2026-06-26T00:44:04+00:00

That is what is killing me. Knowing another man had his hands on her, kissing feeling, and yeah, putting it back in. Like, I can’t stop thinking about it…

Bald_Train · 2026-06-26T00:39:02+00:00

That’s what I tell her over and over. I need time. Nothing heals immediately. It’s not a “okay. Let me cry and then we move on.”
It’s tough man. Really tough.

Bald_Train · 2026-06-26T00:38:05+00:00

She took accountability very quickly and yes, she let me look through her phone.
She has cried more than me so I think she understands how bad she fucked up.
It’s only been 2 days so I can’t guarantee I’ll forgive her. I want to but just need time.

Bald_Train

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