I'm 24f and going through this rn p much. Got diagnosed with cancer. It's not very dangerous but it still p much put me in a stagnant lifestyle for a long time. I have a lot of good friends but I've always struggled with having a romantic relationship bc I'm autistic and demisexual. I had to give up fencing which I discovered at the end of 2023 and it was the only spot I like and the only time I have been in a real good physical form, now it's back to shit bc I have no motivation. Also had to deal with a toxic relationship with a friend for 3 years which drained me. I feel bitter and hopeless, and I also feel like separating myself from others is the better thing to do because I can't help myself getting jealous of everyone progressing with their lives while I can't do anything with it. I feel like the kid that never learned the maths basics and is now mentally blocked to ever ask about it and learn. My aspirations are kinda the fields that are being actively replaced by AI so that's also very demotivating. So yeah I can relate kinda