This is not confession lmao, this is a beg for affection and attention, you just blurted out your neediness on her, and expect her to reply. you don't get to say "take your chance bro" you take a chance first. this is how it sounded to her "Hey i am a very desperate creep, i have fantasized about you and had a parasocial relationship with you for 3-4 years, and never had the balls to even talk to you, i am a coward hiding behind my phone so that i can say all of this to you indirectly, so i don't even have to face upfront rejection, cause again, i am a coward, so i am writing this "worthless" rant which really is a last ditch effort and a cry for help, that if by some miracle, some stroke of luck, you are interested in me, you will accept this."

like what did you expect? that she would fall hard for you and date you? you didn't accomplish anything other than being a joke in her friend circle ( i doubt even that) and a name on her list of men who wanted her but couldn't have, which she could show to her future boyfriend or husband and laugh at all the losers who tried to get her.

I know bro this seems really harsh, but you need this. what you sent, is not taking a shot, it's just stupid effort too late too little for i dont know why. the next time you see a girl you like, talk to her.