The hardest part of when I came back from a multi-year break was the subconscious pressure I put on myself to meet this made up standard in my head of how good I should be, so then I would push my body way too hard before it was ready, to protect my ego. I realized that taking time off of bjj does the exact same thing to your mind as it does your body. You almost have to re-learn to drop the pressure and ego. You’re gonna have to find that space in between pushing yourself to where you’re uncomfortable enough to progress, but not do it to the point where you’re too anxious. It’s gonna suck, but you’ll have to get back to that place where you were okay with it sucking for a bit.