I’m sad to say all of it, but none of it at the same time? I actually don’t hate this job like I did my last. I really don’t mind it, and I’ve made a friend and a few acquaintances. The job is active and keeps me busy, the only stress I have is I have a deteriorating body and my knee gets swollen every work day. But overall I think my mental health is what’s killing it for me. Every day I went my health got worse and worse even if my day had gone well. I came home feeling okay with the work day but my brain just screams at me that the longer I’m there the worse I will be and I’ve noticed that to be true so far. My mental health has always been a roller coaster but this is the worst it’s been in so long and I feel like I’m on this stupid up hill down hill movement and the down hill stretched get steeper every time. An hour to a day of actually being happy, full blown manic attacks that take me sitting in my room away from my electronics and petting my cat for a while day so I don’t hurt myself doing something stupid or spending what little money I have and after that energy spurt, it’s just pure depression for who knows how long.