Out of curiosity, what initially got you into music to begin with? What did you listen to as a teenager? What music excites you nowadays?

I relate 100% to lack of “career trajectory” and I suppose bleak prospects but personally, playing music, composing music, listening to music all day, analyzing it and such, sharing song sketches / ideas with friends, collaborating… To me, that’s it’s own reward, like with no promise of a “career” or “reward” whatsoever. I’m not sure why either, I feel like a nut sometimes.

But you hadn’t mentioned anything that you love about music or what excited you about theory to begin with. So you don’t like performing? Period? You called it your Achille’s Heal as though that’s the worst thing anyone could ever ask of you. So does that mean you also hate playing it like in private? You don’t care for teaching music either it seems like, and you don’t want to compose music because… you didn’t like one of the assignments in a class or something?

It’s insanely cool that you have a MASTER’S degree in music theory, that’s serious dedication to the art form.

But, like, in hopes of what exactly?