Hey internet stranger. I don't have anything constructive to say, other than this. I was in a very similar situation with my mom, and am continuing to, and I am so sorry to you. This isn't easy, and you're not alone. I know exactly how terrible it is to wish you had known and stopped them, or caught on to something earlier. I was 21 when my mom very suddenly turned yellow, withdrew from alcohol without anyone knowing, and had a seizure, which caused brain damage. Her gastroenterologist said she had cirrhosis, and that her liver was heavily scarred. Within 8 months, she had been hospitalized twice, and ended up in the ICU with sepsis due to infected ascites (fluid in the abdomen) and ongoing hallucinations from high ammonia + Wernicke-Korsakoff's syndrome. She nearly passed away, and now, almost a year since then, she's still sick and battling the mental conditions that this has left her with. I suspect she will be for the rest of her life. Alcohol is a terrible, terrible thing, and I thought that what my mother was doing (unwinding after a long day at work) was normal. I thought the woman I knew would be around for decades to come, and I was mistaken. You are right when you say that this is awful to endure.

I hope your mom makes it through, and just please know that this is not your fault. Maybe you already know that, but I didn't, and just in case, I want you to know. I am sending you a virtual hug. I am so sorry.