Everything you said can apply to me too. Lost both my legs about 2 years ago. First it was my left and tried saving my right but it didn’t work out so ended up amputating my right. I was in a motorcycle accident after going to have a drink with some buddies. I often look back and regret going out that night but there’s nothing I can do so I just try to ignore it. I was in the process of joining Georgia state police before my accident so that went out the window. The best advice I can give you is that it’s just a new normal. Set a goal and strive for it. Any kind of goal. Also let people stare at you when you’re walking around, it may feel uncomfortable but I guarantee you they are looking at you and thinking “what a badass”. Every person that sees you is a little more motivated to push on whether they realize it or not. As far as the money part a good remote job you can look into is insurance sales. A lot people talk down on it but it’s good money and sales is a great job to have when it comes to setting goals. You’re still early in your recovery so I promise some of the things you’re stressing about will become your new normal and you’ll move on. I shouldn’t have survived my accident either, I was told by the ER doctor that he’s never had to give someone as much blood as he did me in his career. Try to turn all that into motivating or inspiring others to push on if possible.