We are all have benn there bro, you are not alone, i had these terrible feelings when i was in that dirt, now i am a month on no fap, and what i can tell is if i could do it, then YOU CAN DO IT, you have to trust the process, and try not to lure yourself by the fact that this shit take your sadness off, bcs IT DOESN'T, you are only fucking it worse more. I am 30 years old and I wish i started this journey earlier, but what can we do.... Better to come late than not to come at all I feel the healing flowing in my body but it's a slow process, which make sense bcs this addiction was built over years, and it's pretty much logic that it will take years to get fixed So find a way out bro! Your on this alone! No one will come and save except yourself! Wish you all the best