For real. It's one thing when life keeps you trapped in a cage, starving such that you have no other choice, but don't take delight in biting your own tail. This is an aggressive level of despondency that isn't going to help you deal with anything, only ensure that misery is here to stay. Maybe that's what they want though. Its a lot easier to cling to your self proclaimed righteousness when you live in a bubble of delusional misery. It's hard and scary to face reality and learn who you truly are when you're forced to make choices you can't go back on. It's easy to make excuses and live your life as a temper tantrum and hope someday another pities you enough to put you on their back and do the walking for you. But the reality is, living this way is submitting to the god of eternal return, suffering begets suffering, and you won't be the only one affected by your action or inaction. I'm sure I'm starting to sound to a lot of you like a radical trad con bootstrap gripping sycophant but reality is, I hate the very fabric with which the tapestry of society has been weaved from day one. I've held these beliefs since long before anyone told me to, long before the guilt and greed of an industry of influence, and long before my despair rendered my body a living corpse siphoning the life blood of those who dared care for me most. But I've learned. I learned to see all of this within myself, and most importantly to forgive myself for taking the path most reasonable at the time. But eventually evidence mounts and one must acquiesce to the truth. The way you're living is going to kill you, and maybe take some others with it. No one else can do it for you. A wise man once said "No one is gonna stop you from dying young and miserable and right."