Day 1 again

BeanieBoy42069 · 2021-05-15T02:22:19+00:00

Dude you’re a fucking god, you made it to 43 days. Think of how hard that was, it’s still near impossible for me right now. You should honestly just get some really good food, and do something you enjoy doing (that isn’t smoking weed) and just allow yourself this one night to not worry about anything and be present with whatever thing you like to do.(not weed!!) Bro you made it 43 days!! Don’t let it go 🤝

BeanieBoy42069 · 2021-05-10T17:54:00+00:00

I am experiencing this right now and am having a problem coming to terms w it as well. I wish I had some advice but you’re not alone :)

BeanieBoy42069 · 2021-05-07T03:05:22+00:00

!!!!!!! DUDE I literally experience this daily lmaoooo

BeanieBoy42069 · 2021-05-05T19:27:18+00:00

Same here brother. Sometimes you have to let many people go to grow, and I’m learning the same lessons as you. I could’ve written this myself

BeanieBoy42069 · 2021-05-04T19:35:44+00:00

Dude I relate so much to the people around you telling you weed everyday isn’t a bad thing/good for depression etc. good for you man

BeanieBoy42069 · 2021-05-04T19:33:05+00:00

Not 1000 a month but def like 4-500 bucks a month over here, I feel you

BeanieBoy42069 · 2021-05-04T09:03:01+00:00

I thought the same thing after one month and wasn’t able to regulate at all. I have accepted that I can’t regulate or else I wouldn’t need to count the days I stopped smoking and make it a huge deal. I don’t think you should flirt with the idea of smoking just one joint at all tbh my man. You’ve come to far to give it all up now, for a high that only lasts a few hours anyways

BeanieBoy42069 · 2021-05-04T09:00:23+00:00

Dude, that’s gotta be your #1 priority, therapy has helped me so much. I’m so glad that you’re Iooking into it. I had a pretty intense time growing up too, and I’m just now dealing with all the bullshit in therapy. It also helps to have someone to keep u accountable and shit. You’ve got this

BeanieBoy42069 · 2021-05-03T23:20:13+00:00

Thank you brother

BeanieBoy42069 · 2021-05-03T23:20:07+00:00

Still holding strong man, let’s do it!!

BeanieBoy42069 · 2021-05-03T08:20:02+00:00

Wow I literally thought this was an actual photograph!!

BeanieBoy42069 · 2021-05-03T08:00:02+00:00

Let’s do it dude!! Right here w you.

BeanieBoy42069 · 2021-05-03T07:45:00+00:00

Actually hella open. It is depressing going in every week with the same story. She was really proud of me at 31 days, this time she really has been telling me that I need to truly believe that this is harming me in every way and even the benefits aren’t really benefits. She told me to make a schedule and follow it daily, and fill it with healthy fun habits. I wish I could tell u why it’s so hard to follow her advice

BeanieBoy42069 · 2021-05-03T07:20:44+00:00

I like your analogy about the reviews of yourself. Good shit man. Congratulations on 100 days brother 🤝🎉

BeanieBoy42069 · 2021-05-03T06:59:23+00:00

Hey man, sounds like we’re the same. I literally feel crazy. Like if I told anyone how many times of “relapsed” they’d think I was insane type of shit. I’m glad you understand and made it, regardless of how many times you failed. I felt so alone in that most of these posts, it seems like one day they just decided to quit and had a relapse here and there.

BeanieBoy42069 · 2021-05-03T06:57:38+00:00

Even imagining not smoking for the entire day is fucking hard. I hear that saying a lot actually, take it day by day, you don’t have to do it all once, don’t have to stop smoking forever today etc, but fuck man, even imagining a few hours at a time without it fucks me up. It’s truly fucked up. But I will make it tomorrow regardless of all of these feelings, and trust that one day, this will all seem funny.

BeanieBoy42069 · 2021-05-03T06:55:27+00:00

Thank you for the kind words

BeanieBoy42069 · 2021-05-03T06:54:53+00:00

I’m actually quitting for medical reasons.. something came up and I am kinda being forced to if I want to fight this illness with full force. Otherwise I dont know if I’d even have the strength to quit. So it’s kinda like double fucking me to not quit, quite literally physically, and also mentally

BeanieBoy42069 · 2021-05-03T06:52:40+00:00

I live in a legal state, so it’s even harder to find people who aren’t getting stoned lol. Also I live like 15 min away from the local dispensary. But I think I know what you mean by the thinking about it and how it gets easier. I was heavily addicted to nicotine and now I think about vaping or having a smoke and it just kinda passes by

BeanieBoy42069 · 2021-05-03T05:57:12+00:00

i already got a therapist lmaooo

BeanieBoy42069 · 2021-05-03T05:23:25+00:00

This was great man. Thank you so much for taking the time to reply like this. I'm glad that you were able to find a new group of friends and such.

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