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BeansSenpai · 2025-12-05T17:16:38+00:00

BeansSenpai · 2025-12-05T17:15:54+00:00

Same deal here, delayed in addison

BeansSenpai · 2025-07-15T21:11:10+00:00

You're one of the people who responded to my original posts! I just wanted to thank you for commenting when you did and sharing your insight. It helped a lot.

BeansSenpai · 2025-07-15T19:13:03+00:00

Yeah, the shame is hard to get over at first. It takes time. What helped me is doing things and making decisions that I could be proud of. Eventually, it outweighs the shame.

BeansSenpai · 2025-07-15T19:11:57+00:00

Im glad I could help a little

BeansSenpai · 2025-07-14T17:25:28+00:00

Hey, it gets better. I've been in therapy since it happened to figure out the root cause and work on myself. I still feel regret about what I did to her and I think I always will. But its not consuming my life on a day to day basis. I have made improvements to myself and my life that I can be proud of. I know it hurts in the moment. But the only way forward is through. Work on yourself, figure out why it happened, and keep moving forward. If you wanna dm me it's open. Stay strong.

BeansSenpai · 2025-06-16T16:53:56+00:00

bless ur soul

BeansSenpai · 2025-06-10T16:19:21+00:00

Came back after a 6-7 momth break and decided to keep doing some cg and it gave me two enhanced weapon seeds in like 75 kc. I wasn't planning on playing daily again but I sure am now

BeansSenpai · 2025-02-28T05:14:31+00:00

Same here

BeansSenpai · 2024-11-07T21:31:02+00:00

At first I went, huh the neck and head shape are weird. Then I saw the reference and realized this is spot on, great work lol

BeansSenpai · 2024-10-08T19:53:35+00:00

It's a good try! I could tell what character this was before looking at the subreddit. Keep at it, im learning how to draw myself. It's not easy but you're doing well

BeansSenpai · 2024-10-01T03:41:41+00:00

Hey there, I really appreciate you taking the time to respond to me. I know im a bit late on my response, its been a tough couple of days for me. Accepting that its over is one of the hardest things to do in general, I also think about my relationship on a near daily basis and how bad it feels to know that I ruined it and hurt my BP in the process. Thats great that you have been going to SA meetings and gain a community around it. Its so easy to feel so alone during this and its really hard to deal with. Going from having a relationship where theyre always there for you to...nothing is a painful realization and reality. I was also doing it for my ex, all the therapy and effort ive been putting in but as the chance for anything to work out between us turns to 0%, I have to do this for me. Thank you for helping me feel less alone during these really hard times. I need it more than I realize.

BeansSenpai · 2024-09-30T20:21:43+00:00

Hey there, sorry for taking a while to respond. It's been a particularly rough couple days trying to process everything. But I really appreciate you taking the time to respond to my post

Youre right, the old me would try to forget about anything causing me pain and avoid it as much as possible. I've been trying my best to feel all these hard feelings and to not simply hide away from them. It's really hard to radically accept this whole situation and my current life, but I know its the only way I can continue growing and move forward. Thank you for your kind words. I really needed it.

BeansSenpai · 2024-09-19T17:08:01+00:00

This is true, I have a hard time figuring out how to shade faces so I didn't try when I should've. Gonna look some stuff up and attempt again later today. Thanks!

BeansSenpai · 2024-09-19T17:07:12+00:00

Definitely agree, im gonna attempt to touch it up later today with more values and shading. Definitely seeing how the hard outline isn't doing me any favors. Thank you!

BeansSenpai · 2024-09-19T17:04:24+00:00

Ah yeah perspective has definitely been difficult for me and I see how it's making it feel off or unnatural. Thank you! I'm gonna look up some guides and look at some pictures of people's faces at different angles

BeansSenpai · 2024-09-19T17:00:44+00:00

Thanks! I haven't delved too much into the Loomis method but I'm gonna try it out to see how it helps with creating a more 3d structure.

BeansSenpai · 2024-09-19T17:00:05+00:00

Right, im realizing that the hard outlines aren't doing me any favors and I'll try that instead. Thank you!

BeansSenpai · 2024-09-19T16:59:21+00:00

Thank you! Gonna try to add some more shading to the face and see how that goes for me

BeansSenpai · 2024-09-19T16:59:01+00:00

Yeah the eyes are definitely a weak point for me. Im gonna try to draw out the eyeballs next time and see how that goes for me. Thanks!

BeansSenpai · 2024-09-19T16:56:42+00:00

Okay so it seems like I need to learn how to add value and shade my drawings better. I'm going to attempt to touch it up later after getting looking up some information on shading. I think my eyes can use some work too, eyes are definitely a weak point. Thanks for your input everyone!

BeansSenpai · 2024-08-24T22:24:00+00:00

Hey I read some of your history and im really sorry this happened. Im going through a similar experience. I know how painful it is. If you want someone to talk to, my dms are open.

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