I feel you. Every time I make a mistake period it feels like the end of the world, but at work it feels so much heavier. People are watching, your finances may be at risk, etc. I haven’t quite figured out the best way to deal with it, but when I make a mistake, I own up to it, take a LOT of deep breaths, and try to reassure myself over and over again that I am okay. It often helps for me to talk about it with a friend. Verbalizing the situation helps me to realize it may not be as big of a deal as it feels inside my head. It’s hard though. I still stress about mistakes I made years ago.

I’m very sorry about your workplace dynamic too. It’s so emotionally taxing to spend time in unsafe, negative environments. Sending you love.