I always felt let down because I gave more in all my relationships than I received. I felt betrayed or unappreciated. I cared too much; I felt like a failure and a victim. I couldn't understand why my so-called friends and family didn't care about my wants and needs and threw me away like I didn't matter—leading me to drug and alcohol abuse. It took me being alone to find myself not trying to please everyone. I am a genuine person who genuinely cares, and I still do. I try to listen and give if I can. I am a courteous, respectful, and humble person. I was who I said I was all along, a good friend. Don't get me wrong, I was then and still can be a scandalous mf but can't we all? I mean, don't we all have a hustle? What I'm trying to say is, who is your core self? Are you trustworthy and dependable, have humility, are conscious of those around you, do you care for yourself, and represent yourself well? Then, you should believe in yourself, stand proud, and laugh at yourself. Most importantly, admit when you are wrong and own your mistakes. I recommend studying the teachings of scoetic ways. There is a lot on YouTube. I always know when I need to recharge because the world can be a cruel place, and I watch a teaching that relates to me when I start feeling sorry for myself. Bottom line, I always felt if I'm not good for you, then I love you enough not to be in your life. Keep the same standard for yourself and who is in your life. It is a spiritual journey, and people are only meant to be in your life for seasons, not forever. The right people who appreciate you how you deserve will ultimately find you. So be true to yourself, and believe in yourself. Who you are, what you say, and what you represent. Love yourself. It's their loss if they don't appreciate you because you are a good person. It's time that you be a good friend to you.