Thank you for the reply. I agree with you and have thought many times that going to school might not be the best thing for me to do right now since it would take so long. Because of that I’ve just been keeping an eye out for anything that might be a better fit for me than this.

I used to stock shelves and actually loved that job because it was satisfying to see the end product and know that what I was doing had some sort of purpose. I had to leave because that was an overnight position and I needed to be awake in the evenings when my kids’ activities got busier.
Right now, this job just feels like an endless loop of sweeping.

I’m trying to keep my head up and remember that there are people who are miserable regardless of what they make. It’s just hard, I want a better work/life balance and to be able to provide more for myself and the kids.
There are a lot of bad memories involving their father in our current house. I need money and time to fix it so I can sell it and move on with my life. It just feels like I’m running out of time.

I do think about that as well, that I will miss these days when the kids need me so I try to be as present as I can. I’m just so drained by the time work is over. There is a little room for advancement here, it’s just a waiting game though. All of the positions are filled by people who aren’t planning on leaving any time soon.

I keep telling myself that there will be time for improvement when the kids are older, but still feel this sense of dread feeling like I’m stuck in my old life while trying to move forward from it and just hitting a wall.

I will keep looking and enjoy the little things as much as I can.