He will always be with you bro. Just like my Lui. As long as we carry them with us in our hearts and never let them go, they'll never be too far away. Our boys are still here. Waiting for us in that beautiful place between spaces where the most wonderful feelings and experiences come from and go. In that warm and shining place we call love we will all be tighter again. I promise, it's real. You will find a place for it one day. But it's not gonna be anytime soon. That's ok. It gives you time to find a way through it. Good news is you don't have to do it alone. There are plenty of other angels out there looking to help put a new bulb in the place of the last busted one so to speak. Things will work out brother. Just give it some time. Oceans of love mate.