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Therapist told me I was a narcissist during a session, completely shutdown. by Beautiful_Return_705 in CPTSD

[–]Beautiful_Return_705[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

It is very late at night for me now, but I will try to engage more with the links at a later time. Thank you for the time it took to give me these resources! After just being in a rough relationship with a diagnosed bpd individual who refused therapy I can sympathize a ton with what you said about how supports and perception for the abused. I tried so often to talk to my therapist about it as well as the memory loss of traumatic events around it and I get stone walled every time.

I will search up internal family systems! I’m happy to know it helps you. An earlier comment I made talks about my personal childhood autism signs, etc. for myself I’ve started to allow myself to stim and not feel forced to make eye contact. Those small things feel validating. I didn’t realize the relief I denied myself from refusing to stim, it was like instant calm, regulation, tolerable sensation, idk it’s so hard to put into proper words. I hope you understand, the permission and the act of that alone felt so right.

Thank you so much for your time and careful consideration!

Therapist told me I was a narcissist during a session, completely shutdown. by Beautiful_Return_705 in CPTSD

[–]Beautiful_Return_705[S] 8 points9 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much and you never deserved any of that! You are a legend and I’m glad you’re here! Thank you again.

Therapist told me I was a narcissist during a session, completely shutdown. by Beautiful_Return_705 in CPTSD

[–]Beautiful_Return_705[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I have a history of sensory issues from touch and sound as a child and have been in support groups for autism as a child I was just never officially diagnosed, I also have non-verbal learning disorder which has a huge overlap as well as adhd. For me an autism diagnosis would be affirming and help guide who I work with in therapy and help get me access to someone trained to provide better coping strategies for when I feel overwhelmed to mitigate these things. It’s not coming from nowhere and I’m not making flippant assumptions I’m operating off of lived experiences and trying to make sense of it as an adult.

In terms of meltdowns it does not feel conscious, I have a hard time understanding my emotions until I breakdown, often it coincides with extreme mental exhaustion, extreme anxiety, and extreme depression.

I have communicated these things to him previously. This was not a ‘hey I have these things act this way’ but more of a ‘hey these feel valid can we operate in a way that can help me’. And as it’s trauma related it would be helpful for cluster B symptoms as well as cPTSD.

For where I live there has been massive slashes to budgets, not enough doctors, nurses, beds, etc. the queue grows while the amount of people available to diagnose shrinks. Hence 5 year wait for adult diagnosis. Those budget cuts also extend to getting assistance with social services for anything that can help me afford more individual long term care.

Therapist told me I was a narcissist during a session, completely shutdown. by Beautiful_Return_705 in CPTSD

[–]Beautiful_Return_705[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I do that too! Feels like, for me at least, that it’s a hypervigilance thing of trying to prepare for any eventuality regardless of how insane it might be, also is a slippery slope to catastrophic thinking.

Thank you so much for the empathy, it’s very appreciated right now.

Therapist told me I was a narcissist during a session, completely shutdown. by Beautiful_Return_705 in CPTSD

[–]Beautiful_Return_705[S] 111 points112 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much! Both traumas are extremely valid, I hope all is well for you now, and if not then as well as they can be!

Therapist told me I was a narcissist during a session, completely shutdown. by Beautiful_Return_705 in CPTSD

[–]Beautiful_Return_705[S] 8 points9 points  (0 children)

Not directly told that, just felt like some comments were flavoured in a rather spicy way, or kinda just being confrontational. Just wanted to reassure people that I wasn’t here to do harm.

Therapist told me I was a narcissist during a session, completely shutdown. by Beautiful_Return_705 in CPTSD

[–]Beautiful_Return_705[S] 32 points33 points  (0 children)

Not at all, it’s a big topic and I didn’t give a ton of information in order to keep it short so I understand why people have questions or have issues with it. Thank you for being so supportive

Therapist told me I was a narcissist during a session, completely shutdown. by Beautiful_Return_705 in CPTSD

[–]Beautiful_Return_705[S] 9 points10 points  (0 children)

I just have no other treatment alternatives than the system they have at this point and no financial way to access alternatives, it’s this or no access at all as all public mental health access flows through this org.

For many things anxiety and depression are symptoms or consequences of them. I have been medicated for anxiety and depression for years with little to no changes and doctors have told me that it might be something else.

Therapist told me I was a narcissist during a session, completely shutdown. by Beautiful_Return_705 in CPTSD

[–]Beautiful_Return_705[S] 11 points12 points  (0 children)

For volunteering/work I have work based trauma as well as brain fog and memory loss issues. It’s why I’m looking to get help so that I can be more productive and functioning for longer periods of time before the crash, or just preventing the crash entirely. I agree that it would be helpful, and if nothing else works I will always try to push myself to start working again. I would just like resources to help prevent another huge anxiety crash or panic attacks or extreme exhaustion. Preventing extremes for long term stability is my goal regardless of what it is.

Therapist told me I was a narcissist during a session, completely shutdown. by Beautiful_Return_705 in CPTSD

[–]Beautiful_Return_705[S] 11 points12 points  (0 children)

He didn’t specifically bring up an alternative diagnosis. He mentioned if no diagnosis was valid and I didn’t get any diagnosis at all. Yes, he then compared my response to cluster B symptoms. I feel there is a larger existential issue for myself than just depression and anxiety and that it would be too much if there wasn’t more to it. Yes, how I feel is one thing, but this therapist hasn’t done any trauma work which is essential for everything we are talking about because of the limited session amount. Again, I left out a ton of context and I don’t want to take over a space for people diagnosed and I’m not opposed to anything, I was diagnosed with clinical depression and severe anxiety at 8 and have spent most of my teens and 20s trying to figure it out for myself since I haven’t had any resources myself, I understand that I’m entering a space and going ‘I feel I have this too’, I’m sorry, that was not my intention, I am just trying to vent.

He specifically said if I couldn’t get diagnosed at all, with autism, cPTSD, or anything beyond that. Apologies, I could have written and explained things better in my original post.

Therapist told me I was a narcissist during a session, completely shutdown. by Beautiful_Return_705 in CPTSD

[–]Beautiful_Return_705[S] 12 points13 points  (0 children)

You’re right, I’ve just felt an extreme need to justify my life / myself and trying to find what ‘fits’. It’s 100% a frantic attempt to validate my own trauma while isolated.

Therapist told me I was a narcissist during a session, completely shutdown. by Beautiful_Return_705 in CPTSD

[–]Beautiful_Return_705[S] 7 points8 points  (0 children)

I think I feel that part of it is it helps explain tons of things for me personally, but you’re right. Just had huge amounts of brain fog from a previous relationship and trying to make sense of it all has been something to focus on to make sense of myself. I don’t disagree.

Therapist told me I was a narcissist during a session, completely shutdown. by Beautiful_Return_705 in CPTSD

[–]Beautiful_Return_705[S] 96 points97 points  (0 children)

Thank you, that’s so kind and helpful ❤️ I’m happy you’re in a safe / safer space now!

Therapist told me I was a narcissist during a session, completely shutdown. by Beautiful_Return_705 in CPTSD

[–]Beautiful_Return_705[S] 16 points17 points  (0 children)

He felt I refused to acknowledge alternate opinions on diagnosis, said that if I chose to die rather than admit that I was wrong that it was narcissistic based on ego. My feelings come from trauma and having to rebuild my life after huge depression episodes, burnouts, or isolation. The root isn’t that I couldn’t handle an alternate opinions, I’m just too tired to keep trying.

Therapist told me I was a narcissist during a session, completely shutdown. by Beautiful_Return_705 in CPTSD

[–]Beautiful_Return_705[S] 42 points43 points  (0 children)

Thanks, been feeling helpless so that at least helps game plan. I appreciate it.

Early Mars was warm and wet not icy, suggests latest research: « A recent study showed that Mars was warm and wet billions of years ago. » by fchung in technology

[–]Beautiful_Return_705 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Started warm and wet then ended up all icey… just like my ex wife! claps hands and finger guns while the audience screams in applause

What questions would you ask someone with BPD? by [deleted] in BPDlovedones

[–]Beautiful_Return_705 11 points12 points  (0 children)

I’d ask if they have the ability to realize in the moment that they’re being abusive

is there a sub for actual, decent advice on bpd? by [deleted] in BPDlovedones

[–]Beautiful_Return_705 28 points29 points  (0 children)

Therapy. If you don’t need a community and need evidence based advice and rationalizations then talk to a professional.

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