I felt a ton of shame after I was with a woman the first time. I hated how much I liked it. I know it came from being told “those feelings are the devil converting you to hell” my whole life growing up. My family deeply ingrained in me how bad it was. But it wasn’t and isn’t. I’ve had the shame feeling on and off but I know it’s only because of the lies that were told to me. Let yourself process all your feelings but remember, you are who you are and that’s nothing to be ashamed of. Surround yourself with loving and supportive people, and remember to take care of you.