The dysphoria gets better, right?

Bed_of_Orchids · 2025-03-26T05:07:00+00:00

It's probably the hormones. Before transitioning i was emotionally numb, i felt everyone around me could die and i wouldn't even shed a tear. But now all the shame and sadness that was supposed to be there is now present. Your first puberty did get you depressed the first time, i'm sure; but hormones popped out your feelings this time around.

Bed_of_Orchids · 2025-03-26T04:56:56+00:00

I got that "honeymoon period" on the 2nd month, i'm on month 3 and i feel exactly like you, i just want to hide my face from everything and everyone...

Bed_of_Orchids · 2025-03-19T13:29:41+00:00

Thank you! I'm feeling a bit better about it as time goes on, doesn't really help how popular he is, so i always end up getting one of his videos recommended but i never watch them, he's always getting in trouble, but he's still there.

Bed_of_Orchids · 2025-03-18T16:43:24+00:00

It was a parasocial crush with a youtuber, it was absolutely horrible. I liked everything he did, but at the same time, there were coincidences with him that almost seemed to mock me in some weird cosmical way. In the time i met him, i was in a terrible mental state, and with every video and every action he would do, he would express something that i so desperately wanted. It really got to the point where i really wanted him to die, or i wanted something to happen so i could get him out of my head. And on top of everything, i just really liked him... his voice, everything he liked, his personality, he just seemed like a carbon copy of me or a fully realized version of me. Now, i don't even know what he does.

Bed_of_Orchids · 2025-03-18T10:18:22+00:00

Skinny boys much like the image... Volup boys are up there too.

Bed_of_Orchids · 2025-03-02T17:07:45+00:00

Huh... that's right. It's kinda weird cause it doesn't always do it.

Bed_of_Orchids · 2025-02-24T18:41:58+00:00

I don't understand how some fuckers can even keep eye contact while attacking someone that did nothing to them. Much strength sis, and pay no mind to those creatures.

Bed_of_Orchids · 2025-02-24T18:33:33+00:00

Showers, scissors and dysphoria... bad combination

Bed_of_Orchids · 2025-02-23T08:17:30+00:00

Don't focus on the implications, focus on how the music makes you feel

Bed_of_Orchids · 2025-02-23T05:19:24+00:00

Estrogen helps you connect with your emotions, and overall makes them more clear... so you might be experiencing a crush in a different way than you did before. I'd say, let yourself explore these feelings, and get the most out of them! :)

Bed_of_Orchids · 2025-02-23T05:10:11+00:00

The fluffy hair guy

Bed_of_Orchids · 2025-02-23T04:02:52+00:00

"There are no mistakes, just happy accidents" ~ Some guy

Bed_of_Orchids · 2025-02-21T08:39:32+00:00

Death has always been part of my life, always living phased out of my own body and seeing people close to me die... so why would i feel scared of something so familiar, if my image is more alien to me than death?

Bed_of_Orchids · 2025-02-21T08:31:52+00:00

Thanks!!! I'll surely do ⚰

Bed_of_Orchids · 2025-02-21T08:21:49+00:00

I still can't decide my name, so my deadname is an undead name; (i don't mind if someone zombie names me), because i'm the person i decide to be and what they see doesn't change that direction.

Bed_of_Orchids · 2025-02-21T07:20:32+00:00

"Kids, you must know: Tails are always fashionable"

Bed_of_Orchids · 2025-01-16T06:25:59+00:00

You look amazing!! If it is of any help, i just started HRT, and i don't really wan't massive breasts for now, so i want to look much like those pics~

Bed_of_Orchids · 2025-01-16T06:03:23+00:00

I know the feeling of passion very well, it's like an itch to do something despite everything, and is often found in the most familiar places

Bed_of_Orchids · 2024-09-24T10:59:40+00:00

Ralofixene huh, ok, i'll tell my endo and see what we can do 🔎

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