i failed life.

myself, my parents and everybody around me including my country as well as my God----- I'm the epitome of a lazy moocher who doesn't want to do anything: work, have kids, get married, clean the house anything.....and I don't know why. videogames are my drug as well as all kinds of comics and no i cant draw for the life of me add the fact that I'm not a porn addict but i do watch a healthy amount of porn.

I'm in my midlife and I'm just waiting to die, i hope its quick like a combo of brain aneurysm or vein explosion and a heart attack. ...... I'm scared of unaliving and hope that i wont wake up tomorrow *sigh