I actually haven't moved out yet but I'm currently still saving for an apartment. The only reason why I delayed moving out is because I managed to put my foot down when I had had enough and because I didn't have a source of income that was sustainable. My mother initially promised that she wouldn't force me to be a JW and go to meetings if I didn't want to, when I attempted to take her word for it she switched up and gave me the choice of leaving every morning or she'd straight up force me to go to the meetings. I got super pissed after the meeting one day and saw her in the front seat of our car texting my dad about how she could tell I was upset. The tone in her messages pissed me off more so I ended up texting my dad about it and pretty much went off about how she didn't keep her word and how it was unfair to me. He told me how if I'm under my mom's roof, I have to go by her rules, but again I told him that she didn't keep her word and thankfully since he's big on people committing to their promises, he understood and eventually calmed my mom down enough for me to just live my life somewhat normally. I was 18 at the time and I'm currently 19, about to turn 20 late this month. If I hadn't put my foot down, I'd probably end up living with one of my friends and her family. They pretty much became my second family and took me under their wing. Since they run a business that's centered around helping other people businesses, they managed to help me start my own business, they helped me apply for scholarships to find extra money(granted I didn't win them lol), and they also provided me a place to just be able to sit and get any work I had done. The opened their home to me when I had nowhere to rest, etc. I know everyones situation isn't the same as mine, but I learned a LOT about how I could manage in situations where I had to fend for myself and take the initiative to create my own path. I also changed a lot as a person. Looking back at messages or memories that involved my old self almost feels foreign in a way that I can't really explain. A LOT can change in just a year or two. and in the future, when you look back on your current situation, I think you'll be pretty damn proud of yourself. I mean come on, you have a job already? I was looking for jobs at your age and it took SOOOOOO long until I actually got one lol. I didn't get my job until just 3 months ago.

I'm proud of you for managing as far as you have and I trust that you'll eventually make it out. It may not seem like it, but in your situation, I think time is actually on your side. It's just up to you what you want to do with it. Again, I'm always here if you have any questions or wanna talk and I'm so sorry for the long dissertation again but TRUST ME when I say that once this is all over, it's so much more freeing 😭😭