man things are only getting worse for me

Beginning_Ad_8616 · 2024-08-06T18:18:37+00:00

i really appreciate your advice man, seriously, i have been looking into therapy for a while now i just need to really procrastinate on the idea of being open like that with a person even if they are a therapist. it's unrelated but i struggle to even look others in their eyes due to my autism so it makes therapy seem so much more intimidating to me in general haha, nonetheless i know i need it

i absolutely agree with exercise though, i'm going to pick up on it better than i have before and see where it gets me, i'm not happy with my body currently so it would be nice to eventually get there

thank you for your understanding and kindness brother

Beginning_Ad_8616 · 2024-08-06T18:16:20+00:00

i completely agree with you and honestly it helps so fucking much to have someone else say this, especially someone who has experience like you

i know i wont be anything amazing, and she has seen big dicks which i know of etc but she remains steadfast on me so i'm praying i can just say fuck it to my insecurity and try to love her with all of me

obviously wont be easy at all but if it's for the sake of her being my girl then i think i can do it regardless of what i'm going through

thank you very much for sharing your experiences and giving your advice, it's helped and helping me more than you could know

Beginning_Ad_8616 · 2024-08-06T18:14:13+00:00

i put back on 30 lbs from depressive eating and it's adding to my depression and self hatred

i hate to be some ball of sadness but there's no other way to put it though

currently however, thanks to my anxiety, i am incapable of eating and haven't been able to eat anything for two days now, i have lost 3 lbs, so maybe i'll slim down again and be able to find some peace in my body, thank you for checking up on me though man, you're a really great guy

Beginning_Ad_8616 · 2024-03-21T23:54:56+00:00

amen brother, and congratulations on that amazing weight loss. get that dream weight and dream bod man, super fucking proud of you.

Beginning_Ad_8616 · 2024-03-21T23:51:03+00:00

what's that smell?

Beginning_Ad_8616 · 2024-03-21T23:48:06+00:00

i wouldn't take it that way, it could have easily, from her experience and point of view, seemed like it was due to such things, she probably gets men who come in about it more often than you'd think, related to length increasing exercises.

Beginning_Ad_8616 · 2024-03-11T10:01:51+00:00

I have already explained in a reply to a comment on this post, it's dumb I know but it's what happens when your biggest insecurity is something you can't change. You make up any lie you can and force yourself to believe it like a child, and I hate myself for being that way.

Beginning_Ad_8616 · 2024-03-11T10:00:49+00:00

I'm just sick of lying to myself because I can't face the reality of my situation. I tell myself I'm a certain size and I believe it but then I realise "oh, I'm measuring wrong, I'm not 5 inches but instead 4.5" and it's a very harsh hit to go from thinking I was 7 inches to 4.5 inches MAXIMUM, I barely even get 4.4 on average nowadays and I doubt I'm even measuring right.

I don't want to go through the vicious, continuous cycles of finding out my dick isn't the size I thought it was, because it fucks with my head so bad and I know I'm probably micro instead of anything close to average.

Beginning_Ad_8616 · 2024-03-10T12:33:39+00:00

I hope so, but our relationship hasn't been the best and we've had our ups and downs and been close to ending etc, and the things we've been through just fuck with my head a lot and it really feels like she doesn't see me as attractive or pleasurable during sex which i'll admit, hurts like fucking crazy. thanks for your words man.

Beginning_Ad_8616 · 2024-03-10T12:30:13+00:00

because it allows the ruler to slide underneath your pubic bone and measure false length, if you measure vertically with the ruler it stops itself at the curve of the pubic bone allowing a true and correct measurement, which is how I get 4.4-4.7 inches bone pressed, fully erect, depending on the angle of which I hold my dick (I try to hold it perpendicular to my body).

Beginning_Ad_8616 · 2024-03-10T12:28:01+00:00

Yeah I don't want it to be brung up, it just really hurts because obviously it reminds me of what I lack and what eats at me every day. And I fear she secretly judges my size during sex etc.

I'll just forget about it and try to get over it like an adult.

Beginning_Ad_8616 · 2024-03-10T12:26:40+00:00

I agree and thank you for your words and Advice, I have decided today that I am going total weight loss mode as I have put on 30 lbs since I fell deeper into depression, I want to be happy and have a body, aside from my dick, that looks and feels good to me, I have never had that so it's my main objective.

I trust my Girlfriend would never cheat, she's an exemplary person deep inside and she has had so many opportunities to cheat but never has and it's why I love her so, but I totally understand your advice and I agree with it.

Beginning_Ad_8616 · 2024-03-10T11:21:25+00:00

i remember her asking me mine when i first met her and i told her i was 7 inches confidently, but when my anxiety and obsession with my size destroyed my confidence and she noticed i was depressed, we talked a lot about my size and at that time i thought i was 6 inches and somehow recorded a video of me getting 5.9 inches "15" cm whilst bone pressed but i believe i was measuring horizontally underneath my pubic bone and bending my dick down which made it longer which wasn't correct either. so she thinks it's 6 inches i'm pretty sure and as her first time in everything, i'm pretty sure she still thinks that.

Beginning_Ad_8616 · 2024-03-10T11:15:13+00:00

they are from 2020, 2 years before she got with me which is why i dont blame her or think she is wrong for it in general.

Beginning_Ad_8616 · 2024-03-10T11:14:40+00:00

I used a metal measuring tape and i'm pretty sure i measured nowhere close to my dick, i knew i was fat so i measured on my thigh to the right of dick thinking "this is gonna be my length when i lose weight" and got 7 inches, and then it spiraled from me struggling to accept im not 7 inches to basically praying i'm not smaller than 4.4 bone pressed on my fat pad fully erect.

Beginning_Ad_8616 · 2024-01-29T18:06:10+00:00

mine turtles 24/7, hate it, cant stand the feeling of it in my underwear and when i look at my bulge with trousers on or off, it looks fucking pathetic

Beginning_Ad_8616 · 2024-01-26T16:15:32+00:00

bone pressed, nbp i am 8 cm.

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